• I broke it off with her. It doesnt matter what "they" think anymore. I thought everything would be good now. I t wasn't. He denied me, turned me down. I felt alone. Everything was starting to fall apart. Everyday that goes by now...hah..what a joy. My "friends" no longer even know I exist. They abadoned me once they found out everything. My ex now is going to tell the rest of the school. Stones will probably be pelted at me everyday coming out of school. Not a day goes by without tears dropping down my eyes. I miss them. I miss them all! But they all left me! Middle school friends either moved on away from me leaving me behind or just threw me away when they found out who I was! I thought friends were supposed to stay with you. It sucks. It all sucks. I wish I wasn;t like this...I wanted things to go back to normal, but now I have a constant reminder everyday that nothing is ever going back to what was "normal". He passes me everyday without a single glance towards my way. No biggie right. I don't need him...I don't need any one..That's crap. I miss staring into his eyes...him holding me tight..a feeling of protection..a feeling of pleasure...all gone. Now he would look at me the way everyone else does....even her...she's out too...I miss her as well. Her cute little smile now turns to an evil smirk as she kisses her new boyfriend. It hurts...it really does..her delicate little hands..her long beautiful hair...it was all mine! Everything is skrewed up now and there's nothing I could do to fix it..and who am I to blame...life truly sucks...just dump it all on me huh...is it really my fault? Is there anyway I could just...go back to liking girls and girls alone?....Hah I wish.