• “Look at them out there,” you say to yourself as you sit in your room like a zombie. While any normal 12 year old would wish to join the kids outside, you think they’re up to something, as if they’re conspiring against you. You try not to let them see your paranoia. You have never been able to understand how normal kids work. You’re an outcast and you’re not sure how you came to be that way, but you can’t imagine it any other way.
    Three years pass you by.
    Your family tells you that you will be moving to Tennessee in the upcoming summer. This could be your chance for change, but is that what you want? Only time will tell.
    As the first day of school rolls around, you walk in and are greeted by a group of surprisingly friendly metal heads. Being accepted as someone other than that one weird kid that nobody likes is a very unfamiliar thing for you so you worry that you may blow it. You freeze and make a total fool of yourself. Although you haven’t succeeded in completely scaring them away, you think you have, so you proceed to leave and go sit by yourself like that all too familiar zombie.
    As the rest of the year progresses around you, you are left behind in the dust to dwell in the realization that you have blown it yet again. You sit there in your own little bubble and watch the world unfold without you, knowing that you have surrendered all control, and are now destined to waste away knowing that you’re missing out on so much, but never fully in touch with exactly what it is.