• Anything

    You look at me and worry
    You say you want to help
    So you stretch out your hand.

    But I lie there still not moving
    Unfeeling and cold
    Doubting even God can fix
    This horror you call life.

    You ask how you can help
    You say you'll do anything.

    I look at you for a while
    Wondering if you would;
    Finally you ask again
    And this time I reply.

    I hand you a gun
    My weapon of choice,
    But you freeze in horror
    Not knowing what can be done.

    So I take it back and c*ck it
    The look on your face
    I will never forget
    As my finger moved
    Swiftly towards the trigger
    Without even a giving myself
    a chance.

    I don't know why I cannot give
    A chance to think
    Or stop myself

    You would think it human nature
    To fight, to want to live.

    But this I cannot give myself,
    Nor do I deserve;
    I've had my fare share
    Of second chances.

    So this time
    I dare not give nor take
    A second more to think
    About what I am asking
    you to do.

    Now that I see you,
    You could never do this
    So I tell you that I will.

    It's because of me
    My life's screwed up
    So this future I foretell
    Should be one
    Of my own doings
    I'll be the one
    Who sends myself to hell.

    This descent is sure to come
    No matter who
    Pushes me there

    Cuz now not even
    God would stop it
    He would just laugh
    And sneer.

    You scream in terror
    I look at you and reply
    'You said anything
    I guess you didn't mean it.'

    You say you won't
    Let me do this
    So I hand you the gun.

    You ask how you can help
    You say you'll do anything.

    So I point right to the gun
    In hope you'll listen this time.

    Your hand that grasps the gun
    Trembles there with fear;
    As I tempt you to pull the trigger
    From your cheek I see a tear.

    And now we're both
    Left sitting here
    Just trying to figure out
    Whether or not you
    Could really help
    And I pray to God you will.