• the hopes and dreams of a girl at four -
    to find the prince that will steal her heart,
    care for her,
    love her eternally.
    i hoped for my prince and knew he would always care.
    the dreams of a teen -
    at the age of thirteen -
    still the same -
    a prince to give me his name.
    and there he was.
    shining in the sun - starting a fire in my soul
    the hurts of a teen -
    depression, confusion, hysteria.
    hormones, friends, lack-of, school, work, love-
    a balancing act of epic proportions.
    burned out and lost, i thought the love was lost -
    i cut the ties,
    said my goodbyes,
    now he's gone -
    happy and free
    i thought i would be the same -
    still wanted a prince's name -
    another found me in my pain -
    picked me up, dusted me off, kissed me gently, and tore me apart -
    betrayed me for another - i do not hate her.
    i only wish i could've seen this coming.
    now i am lower, colder, darker than ever.
    it all seems pointless
    i want release
    i want the bonds of love to be sawed, severed, broken
    i want the pain to leave
    i want to be rid of this world, and it to be rid of me