• you where right here, i could see you. your eyes, looking at me as always. fine. and i thought youd stay here. like always.always there.
    but you left, quietly, secretely, left.
    you were calm when found out
    when i was torn up inside. inside myself
    me feeling a sea of emotions
    you feeling nothing at all.
    and what did i do? how did i respond?
    i let you leave me. i let you leave
    like the idiot i am. i am an idiot
    but i didnt want you to go, but you did. i could have stop you, but i didnt
    why?
    why?
    why?
    i hate you, i hate myself.
    im alone. alone
    i think about everything twice now, two times i think of things
    because i never want to make the same mistake. i consider the future we never had, i consider the present we do. i consider the if and ands, the yes and nos . everything

    twice