• Thump,Thump,Thump,
    goes the incessant annoying sound
    throughout my entire body.
    Constantly, no matter how many punctures
    I have had, the blood doesn't stop;
    it doesn't slow for even a fraction of a second.
    It keeps me alive.
    My heart keeps me here on this Earth, this hell
    hole of nothing but big disappointments and let-downs.
    I'm tired of living through all this grief,
    all the emotional pain that everyone has to go through.
    Its suffocating, yet my heart continues to thump.
    Thump, thump, thump.
    There it goes again.
    I want it to stop, I want all this damn pain over
    and done with.
    I have tried to kill it myself, but something
    doesn't want me dead, I want to die so badly.
    I don't care anymore, I just want to stop breathing,
    to not to live, to not to have to care.
    Just someone kill me now!
    But as someone told me just recently, no one cares
    what I want, it's about what I need- I need to die.
    But at the moment that seems to be impossible.
    Thump, thump,thump.....damn it.