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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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 Posted: Mon Dec 30, 2013 9:27 pm
 Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
One puff after another, it didn't take much time for his car to fill up with smoke and he hadn't even thought of turning on the air or cracking a window. While Micha was inside, he took a moment to break away from his thoughts and order their dinner. Once that was done, he went back to his pondering, trying to figure out if he was overreacting or was he right in his assumptions. He couldn't decide. Noticing that the male had come back some minutes later, Samuel scrambled to sit up properly in his seat, almost choking on the smoke currently filing his lungs when he saw just how much was flying out the door. Smiling apologetically, he waited for the smoke to clear and for Micha to settle. When he was all buckled up and ready to go, Samuel pulled away from the curb and started back to the other side of town to his place.
While driving, he quietly informed Micha that he had gone ahead and ordered dinner so they could just pick it up on the way. He smoked his ciagerette down to the butt, his car again filling with smoke but this time he was smart enough to at least turn on the air to help filter it out. About some twenty minutes later, he pulled into the pizza shops' small parking lot. Leaving his car running, he flicked the cigarette butt to the street and tossing his now empty Starbucks cup in the trash, he headed inside to collect his order. A moment later he came back and politely handed the box to Micha so he could hold it while Samuel drove down the last two blocks to his place.
Parking in his assigned space, he turned off the car, headlights, and went around the trunk to collect the bags from shopping earlier. He also took the pizza box back from Micha while he grabbed his own things and lead the way into the elegant apartment building. As Samuel walked inside, a doorman greeted him and smiled politely to Micha who trailed just a few steps behind him. Leading him to the elevator, he hit the P2 button, the silver doors closing smoothly and the lift gliding up quickly and silently. Though he disliked elevators, this one he was content with for he didn't feel as though one wrong move and he the machine would give out and his tomb stone would read death by elevator. When they reached his floor, there were only two door on the entire floor, one belonging to the Samuel, the other to an elderly lady whom he'd hardly spoken with. Fumbling with the lock for a moment, he managed to get it open and stepped inside, holding the door with his foot for Micha to come in after him. "Make yourself at home, I'm gonna go ahead and put this stuff up first." he said, letting go of the door and dropping the pizza box on the dining table.
Samuel moved towards his bedroom, flipping on a few lights as he went, also checking to make sure his housekeeper hadn't stolen anything while he was away. He didn't like to suspect, but in this day and age there really was no telling with most people. That was just the sad kind of world they lived in today. Once he was sure all was alright, he dropped the bags on to his bed and headed back to the kitchen to grab a few plates. "Anything you want to drink?" he asked, looking through the fridge to see what all he had. Grabbing a bottle of tea for himself, he looked back at Micha, waiting for a response.
  
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Posted: Tue Dec 31, 2013 11:37 am
 "Micha didn’t mind the smoke after all he was used to it since he was a smoker himself. He wondered if something was bothering Samuel especially if he was so wrapped in his thoughts enough not to open a window to let the smoke escape while he sat there. Micha watched as Samuel moved to sit up as he was relaxing against his seat lost in his thoughts. He wanted to question Samuel but thought better against it for now. Micha just sat back and stared out the window as Samuel drove toward his place.
As he sat there, Micha heard Samuel speak as he informed him about the pizza. He simply nodded with little response to the pizza. Micha just continued to stare out the window. When they pulled up to the pizza shop, he remained in the car while Samuel went to go pay for the pizza. He waited for Samuel to return and took the pizza from him setting in his lap as Samuel handed it to him. Micha didn’t mind holding it as he sat there.
The silence filling the space between them was never a good sign usually. He hated the silence. Micha watched out the window as Samuel drove the last few blocks. When they pulled up to Samuel’s parking space, he moved to unbuckle himself and get out. Micha held the pizza in his hand and moved to the back seat to grab his bag as well. He glanced toward Samuel as he took the pizza from him. Micha followed after Samuel who led him toward his apartment building. He held onto his bag as he walked behind Samuel.
Once they made it inside, Micha glanced toward the doorman who greeted them. He smiled back a little but made no effort to speak. Micha continued after Samuel as he followed him toward the elevator. He waited for the elevator doors to open before following Samuel inside. Micha moved to one side as he leaned against the wall. He hated elevators but that was a given. Micha watched as Samuel pushed a button and soon felt the elevator move to the floor Samuel had requested. As they reached Samuel’s floor, Micha slipped off the elevator after Samuel as he followed him to one of two doors on the floor. He glanced around a little but looked back at Samuel as he fumbled to get his door unlocked.
When Samuel managed to get it unlocked, Micha grabbed the door and followed in after Samuel shutting the door behind him. He nodded as Samuel spoke as he set his bag down by the door. Micha then went about removing his shoes. He glanced around a little taking in the room. Micha heard movement from Samuel as he stood there. He made his way toward the dining room area. Micha glanced toward the kitchen once Samuel had returned from his bedroom. He walked toward the counter as he leaned against it. Micha heard Samuel as he spoke about drinks. ”Water is just fine thanks.” He spoke simply as he stood there. Micha didn’t know what Samuel had to drink but at the moment he really didn’t care what he drank."
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Dec 31, 2013 2:48 pm
Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
Samuel knew what silence could do to them. Something about it just seemed to freak them both out enough to slip up somehow. Nodding to the males' request, Samuel moved to take a glass cup from the black wooden cabinet next to the chrome refrigerator. He then moved to the sink, tipping the glass as he filled it to the brim. Turning off the water, Samuel moved to the counter that Micha was currently. Smiling a bit at the male, he handed him his water along with a plate. Taking his own plate, Samuel moved around the counter toward the pizza box on the kitchen table. He took three for himself to start with and then went to grab his bottle tea before heading off towards the living room. Flopping down on the couch it felt as if it had been ages since he was last in his penthouse. Sitting back he looked around the room, finding it to be both familiar and unfamiliar at the same time. He'd definitely been spending too much time in the Hamptons if home wasn't even feeling like home anymore.
Samuel quietly ate his food while he waited for Micha to join him. Since the maid was last here he wasn't sure where the remote had disappeared, so he didn't bother with turning on the television. That was another thing that seemed a bit odd to him. For him, noise and food seemed to go hand in hand. Since he normally was alone whenever he ate at home, something like the television, his laptop, or just a radio going was something he would always have going to help fill the silence. Seeing Micha come in a few moments later, Samuel moved his legs out of the way so he could easily get before slouching back once more. He took two large bites from one slice as an excuse for his silence, his mind still abuzz with his worrisome thoughts. Swallowing hard, he grabbed for his tea and took a swig, glancing at the male from the corner of his eye. "Just calm down." he told himself, "It's not like either of us did anything wrong. It's been a long day....yeah, that's it."
Swallowing again, he had to resist the urge to run a hand through his hair. If he was wanting to appear okay, he was going to have to stop over analyzing every little detail. Taking another small bite he thought about various topics he could bring up. Work, any plans for the next week, needing a shower, just something to help get the ball rolling. Though these all sounded like a good idea in his head he couldn't seem to get his mouth to work the way he wanted it to. So before he could over think the next thing that came to mind, Samuel gently nudged the male with his foot. "Hey, why are you so quiet?" he asked, already knowing that he was the reason. But maybe Micha could say something to get him talking before he could thoroughly think about it.
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Posted: Tue Dec 31, 2013 4:56 pm
"Micha waited against the counter for Samuel to get his drink. He watched as Samuel moved to get a glass from the cabinet. Micha remained at the counter as Samuel walked toward the sink to fill up his cup with water. He didn’t mind tap water, since bottled water always had a weird plastic taste to it. Micha shifted from leaning against the counter to stand up as Samuel came toward him. He took the glass from Samuel along with a plate. Micha thanked him softly.
He shifted away from the counter and moved toward the dining area where Samuel had dropped the box of pizza at. Micha waited for Samuel to get his pizza then moved to get his own. He grabbed two slices of pizza before heading toward the living room to join Samuel. Micha slipped past Samuel as he moved to sit down beside him. He leaned back against the couch as he relaxed beside Samuel. Silence filled the void between them again.
Micha grabbed his first slice of pizza and took a bite from it as he sat there. He could feel Samuel’s eyes on him as he continued to eat his pizza. Micha took a few sips from his glass of water. He stared at the wall across from him as he continued to eat. Micha munched on his pizza soon picking up his second piece as he continued to eat. He soon felt Samuel’s foot nudge his own. Micha heard Samuel speak and turned his head to glance at him. He set his piece of pizza down. ”I could ask you the same thing.” Micha spoke softly as he watched Samuel curiously. ”Tell me…What are you thinking?” He asked as he continued to watch Samuel wondering what was on his mind."
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 12:15 pm
Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
Samuel was well aware that Micha was only quiet because he was quiet. But that didn't stop him from being curious about what the male might be thinking as well. If Samuel seemed in anyway suspicious while trapped in his own mind, then Micha was just as guilty. But again, he only had himself to blame. To him, it seemed whenever Samuel was over analyzing and allowing his mind to run wild, that in turn only caused Micha to worry and allow his own to run just as wild as Samuel. As the spoke, he gave a short laugh, nodding in agreement. Swallowing another bite, Samuel was quiet for a moment. "About you." he replied honestly. "About how I really do like you and how much that fact terrifies me."
At long last Samuel turned his full attention to the male. He was honest with his words and in do so only added to his terror. The truth could be scary at times, confirming it even more so. Out of all the truths he ever spoke in his life, none were as terrifying as whenever he confronted these truths to a lover. There was just something about spilling the heart to another person that made him so anxious and so stupid at times. It was embarrassing, the power some people had to make him feel at times and a lot of the times they weren't even aware of it because he couldn't get the words right. Or for anything to come out at all for that matter. As terrifying as it was though, he knew he couldn't stay silent with Micha. Silence was a killer and if he was quiet for too long, Micha was likely to get up and leave. At least that was what he thought. He couldn't be sure. He wasn't sure. The man was such a mystery, it only added to his crazy thoughts and fears. Samuel truly was pathetic.
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 12:59 pm
"It was true that whenever Samuel was quiet it caused him to worry. Micha found it was never a good sign when Samuel was quiet. He was used to Samuel being talkative. Micha heard Samuel laugh after he spoke. He watched Samuel waiting for an answer wondering if he was going to be given one. Micha listened as Samuel spoke his first words. He knew Samuel was thinking about him that was obvious but what about he didn't know. As Samuel continued to speak it surprised him a little but made him happy to know that Samuel liked him. He watched as Samuel shifted his attention toward him completely. Micha took a second to think about his words before speaking. "And that's a bad thing?" He asked curiously. Micha liked Samuel but the thought didn't bother him. He however knew that what Samuel thought of him seemed to bother him. Micha didn't like the idea of Samuel's feelings of him to be terrifying even though they barely knew each other. He was glad that Samuel was at least being honest with him though he wasn't sure what being truthful would lead to. "
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 4:31 pm
Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
Samuel studied the male as he seemed to choose his words carefully before speaking. Perhaps saying he was terrified wasn't the best way of putting things, but it was the truth nonetheless. What was Micha hoping he would say? Oh he was just so happy to be going out with him and he was already thinking of some deluded shoujo manga future? God no. The day something like that happened, he wanted someone to call 9-1-1 and get him a CT Scan asap. To him this reality was already terrifying enough for him. The thought of marriage seemed like a distant, something he once thought he wanted but then having actually gotten close enough that he could touch it only to have it fall to ruin......no. Marriage no longer held a place on his agenda. Even serious relationships were held with low regard. But liking Micha and not having control on what he was feeling was scary. Being a man who was always in control, knowing it only took one look from this person to make his heart race and his thought spiral out, was scary. It wasn't Micha he was afraid of though. It was falling in love with him.
As he studied the male a little longer and he finally seemed to find the right words, he too had to give a moments' consideration. Was it? To most people probably not. But to him it was to say. "In reality, probably not. But in my head, that's an entirely different story. Especially since my mind likes to wander and blow things out of proportion." he replied, again speaking honestly. Sighing he looked away for a moment, slumping deeper into the plush cushion before glancing back. "The odd thing is as much as I'm very aware of us not being formally together, it's us actually being together and having a deep, meaningful relationship that's bothering me. One part is saying sure go for it, while the other is strongly reminding me of relationships past. If anything, I think I'm likely to go mad before you or I have the option of making a final decision." Sighing again, Samuel moved to rest against the male, smiling up at him before turning to his plate and taking another bite of his food.
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 6:01 pm
"Micha didn’t know what to really think at the moment. He didn’t expect much from Samuel really. Micha already knew going into whatever relationship he had with Samuel that he couldn’t ask for more. He was content with what he had and didn’t need more unless Samuel brought it up. As Samuel spoke again, he couldn’t help but laugh softly. He knew about the idea of the mind wandering and over thinking things. Micha watched as Samuel looked away from him and slumped against the couch. He waited for Samuel to look back at him and continue speaking before he would speak again. Micha watched as Samuel looked back at him and continued to speak. He could understand what Samuel was talking about. Micha worried about the idea of a real relationship between Samuel and him. He wondered if it did happen how long would it last before it ended or would it even last to get to that point. Micha felt Samuel lean against him as he finished speaking and moved on to continue eating. He watched Samuel for a few seconds, ”Like I said Samuel it’s all up to you…If you want a relationship then we can have one…If you don’t want one then we don’t have to. We can continue on as we have been simply going on dates and seeing each other but nothing has to be labeled between us if you don’t want it to be.” Micha spoke truthfully as well letting Samuel know what he was thinking. He wouldn’t push it upon Samuel to start a relationship if he didn’t want to. They could continue to see each other but there didn’t have to have a permanent thing between them. "
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 7:04 pm
Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
Munching on the last bit of his first slice of pizza waited to see if Micha would say something or shove him off right then and there. He'd said it before, and he'd say it again; how Micha had put up with him thus far was beyond him. Most men would have grown too impatient with him and called it quits by now. He knew Micha wouldn't leave that easily and he could only hope he stuck to that promise. When he did speak though, he swallowed, set his plate in his lap, and turned his attention back up to the male. Samuel smiled as he spoke and when he finished a sort of twisted yet playful smile was placed on his lips"Then how about this then," he said,"We keep things as they are, keeping seeing each other regularly and if I do happen to fall for you, you have to take complete and utter responsibility." It was a selfish request, probably one of the most selfish ones he'd made so far. Of course as selfish as it sounded, it wasn't as one-sided as it sounded. Were things to be the exact opposite and Micha happened to fall for him, and he happened to still like him as he did now, then wouldn't mind still being with him. After all, who could really compare ones love for a person to another?
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 7:33 pm
"Micha knew that Samuel was hard to work with but he found that Samuel was worth it. He didn’t mind Samuel’s behavior as he knew he himself was hard to put up with as well. Micha was surprised as well that Samuel put up with him at times too. He watched Samuel wondering what he was thinking. Micha took notice as Samuel set his plate down. He also took in the twisted playful smile set on Samuel’s lips. Micha worried about that smile wondering what it meant. He listened as Samuel spoke letting him finish. Micha smiled lightly as he soon laughed a little, ”Fair enough...And how should I take full responsibility if that were to happen?” He asked both serious and teasing Samuel. Micha didn’t mind taking responsibility if Samuel fell for him. He couldn’t help but want to see that happen in a way. It would be a first time for him to have someone fall for him. "
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 8:07 pm
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 8:40 pm
"Micha didn’t care for sane or normal. He preferred Samuel for the way he was. Micha knew there was a lot to put up with from Samuel but he didn’t mind. He enjoyed his time with Samuel after all he never knew what to expect each time he was with him. Micha relaxed as Samuel’s smile turned from twisted to something more kind. He smiled as Samuel spoke. Micha could agree to those terms. He watched as Samuel tilted his head away so he couldn’t see the emotions on his face. Micha continued to listen to Samuel speak. He knew that being alone was never what anyone wanted. Micha knew what being alone felt like most of the time before he met Samuel. He was just getting used to the idea of not having to be alone all the time. Micha watched Samuel as he seemed to frown down at the couch. He shifted moving to set his plate down along with his drink. Micha shifted to face Samuel who had looked back at him with a smile but it didn’t look happy. He slipped a hand up as he ran his hand over Samuel’s cheek, ”I promise to never let you feel alone and stay with you Samuel. Also you can kiss me and curl up beside me whenever you want you don’t need an excuse to do it.” Micha spoke smiling at Samuel before he leaned over and kissed him against the lips. He didn’t want to leave Samuel alone nor would he."
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 9:33 pm
Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
Conveying his thoughts and feelings like this was hard for Samuel. He didn't like opening up so easily, it made feel weak and went against all he was taught growing up. In the words of his father and grandfather, men weren't supposed to show their true feelings. If they could avoid it, it was best to just put on a brave face and leave the hard conversations for another day. But with Micha, he didn't want to wait for another day, any face could be seen right through, and not opening up led to too much trouble. He may not have been used to opening up to a lover like this, but it was easier than fighting or making up lies. He didn't want to lie to Micha and he wouldn't if he didn't have to. He felt the male shift beside him, which almost caused him to fall on top of him as it caught him off guard. Luckily he was able to keep his balance. As he smiled up at the male, he listened to him speak, finding his promise to be very comforting and wanting to very much to believe that Micha would stick to it. Relaxing against the males' touch, he closed his eyes as he kissed him and gently kissed back. "I'll hold you to that," he replied, opening his eyes slightly and snaking a hand up behind the males' neck. "Just make sure you can keep it." He kissed the male again, pulling back about a minute later. Samuel wanted to trust in Micha's words, really believe that he could make him happy and that he wasn't going to be like his exes. He wanted to believe that Micha was different from the rest and this could turn into something something good, that his worries and doubts were all for nothing. When he spoke like that and listened so earnestly to what he had to say, it was hard to think that his spoke nothing but the truth. Pulling out of the males' reach, he picked up his plate again, quietly telling Micha that he should eat too before everything went cold. Feeling a little more than slightly embarrassed, Samuel ate what was left of his food and finished his tea. When he was done, like a content cat, he curled up beside Micha, laying his head next to his thigh.
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Posted: Wed Jan 01, 2014 10:10 pm
"Micha was glad that Samuel was being truthful with him. At least now everything was in the open and he wouldn’t have to keep worrying himself anymore. He was happy to be on a path that was laid out between the both of them that they agreed on. Micha wasn’t one for promises that he couldn’t keep but he didn’t think that he would fail Samuel. He wanted to be different than what Samuel expected of him. Micha didn’t want to be like all that rest that had let Samuel down. As he kissed Samuel, he felt Samuel relax against him and return the kiss. Micha soon felt Samuel pull back as he spoke. He smiled lightly at Samuel’s words before feeling his hand slip behind his head. Micha nodded as Samuel spoke, ”I will.” He spoke before Samuel kissed him. Micha let his eyes slip close as he returned the kiss. After a while he felt Samuel pull back from him. He released Samuel as he shifted back away from him. Micha moved to sit back as well. He leaned down to grab his plate so he could continue eating. Micha started to eat again as he sat there. He finished off his pizza and set the empty plate down. He grabbed his cup and took a few sips of his water before setting it back down. Micha sat back as he relaxed against the couch. He glanced toward Samuel who had finished eating as well. Micha watched as Samuel shifted beside him to lay his head down his thigh. He didn’t mind as he sat there. Micha slipped his hand up as he started to play with Samuel’s hair. He was content as well as he sat there feeling no reason to not be."
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Thu Jan 02, 2014 12:53 pm
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