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[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

Lying wasn't something that he liked doing to Micha. But he wasn't ready to have this conversation with him. Things were just getting started and already he was worrying about breaking up. Delaying the inevitable could wait. Samuel heard the male sigh, knowing he knew he was lying. He told himself he'd apologize to him later. Though there was no telling how much it would be worth since he knew when he did they would likely be having this nasty conversation. They walked a bit in silence before Samuel spoke again. He waited patiently to see if he would even give him an answer. He wouldn't be offended if the male lied as well. In all fairness he had every right to do so. After all Micha might be internally dealing with a real problem. Whereas Samuel was avoiding an issue that hadn't even started until he let his mind get away from him. They walked a little further before he noticed him shake his head. His voice was so low, he barely heard him above the city noise. He didn't know what to say. Micha had told him the terrible things his father had put him through."What are you going to do?" he asked. "I mean do you need a place to stay or....Can I help you in any way?"

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"What Micha needed right now wasn’t an argument. He also didn’t need to be lied to but he wasn’t going to confront Samuel about it either. Micha knew it would do him no good at the moment. He was curious though to what Samuel was hiding to him but he left it alone for now. Micha figured Samuel would tell him eventually if he wanted to. He walked in silence until he spoke again but he wasn’t even sure he could get the words out. Micha knew he couldn’t keep his thoughts hidden from Samuel after all it was just as important to him as it was to Samuel. He didn’t know what it meant right now but he only hoped it meant he didn’t have to hide. Micha shrugged lightly at Samuel’s questions. ”I don’t know right now…” He spoke softly as he slipped a hand up and ran it through his hair. ”I don’t even know anything right now…All I know is that I got a letter with the return address from my grandfather on my mom’s side…And he’s been dead before I was born.” Micha spoke shaking his head a little trying to understand things but he was only coming up with more questions."

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

Samuel knew how Micha felt about being lied to. He couldn't say he felt all that great about doing it either. But it could wait. Micha's problem seemed a lot more important at the moment. From the stories he was told his father was a dangerous man. Any involvement with him couldn't be good. Samuel was patient as he let the male gather his thoughts before speaking. This couldn't be easy for him. He remained quiet while Micha shrugged and soon spoke. Not knowing what else to do, he reached out and wrapped his arm around Micha's shoulder. "Sorry I......If you want or need to you can come stay at my place for a few days." he said softly. This was all he could do. Samuel didn't know how else to help. He was a sheltered little rich boy, whose biggest problem growing up was being late to a club, lesson, or school. He never had any murderous relatives, he never had to flee his home country, and he never lived on the streets wondering how on Earth he was going to survive. Problems like this just sounded so foreign to him; it was like something out of a novel. But here it was, someone who'd been through it living, breathing and freaking about what could happen next. He wanted to help out, he felt like he was only making it worse.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"As a child, Micha’s father was an abusive man. He was more abusive however toward his mother, but could be rather controlling and abrasive toward him as well. Micha didn’t like to talk about his father much. It was part of his life he wished to forget but he knew it was impossible. Micha continued walking beside Samuel heading back toward his house. He barely noticed Samuel’s movement before feeling his arm slip around him. Micha almost flinched at the feeling but allowed himself to relax into Samuel’s touch. He nodded lightly at Samuel’s words not sure what to say. ”Thank you..Maybe…I don’t know right now.” Micha spoke not sure what he needed. He didn’t even know what the letter meant after all he hadn’t even opened it. Micha was dreading it more than anything. He wasn’t bothered by Samuel’s small gesture though he didn’t want to invade making his problems Samuel’s. The gesture was also thoughtful but he didn’t also want to have another episode of Samuel’s brothers showing up unexpectedly either. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

He walked slowly in step with the male as he attempted to comfort him. It was a poor attempt, but it was all he could do really. He didn't know what else he could do. Unlike Micha, he never had to go through such things and it was hard for him to imagine what it must be like. He wanted to be there for him, but he was at a complete loss on how to go about it. This was really all he could do.When he wrapped his arm around the male, he noticed him tense for a moment before relaxing. He assumed it was stress related and tried not to take it personally. Gently, Samuel rubbed Micha's shoulder and nodded as he spoke. "Well when you find out, the offer will still be there if you need it." he replied. Samuel pressed a kiss to the male's temple and removed his arm to hold his hand instead. He wanted to support Micha in whatever way he could. This was all he could think of. If need be, he could even offer him to stay at his penthouse or the club. Anywhere would be better than hiding at home or in his studio, right? Especially if there was a chance his father already knew about him occasionally living in his studio. What if he was being watched? Or followed? The more he thought about it, the more his unease started to creep up again. He didn't want anything bad happening to Micha.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"When it came to talking about his father, Micha couldn’t help but be tense. He didn’t talk about his father a lot but when he did; he could help but try and hide the fear. Even as an adult now, he was afraid of his father. He couldn’t help his childish ways. Sure his behavior came off as strong normally but when it came to his father, he wasn’t. Micha relaxed as Samuel held onto him. He felt his arm rubbing him trying to calm him down a little which helped. Micha knew there was nothing to fear right now. He nodded at Samuel’s words silently. Micha knew Samuel was just trying to help. He would take him up on the offer if he was in dire need. Micha felt Samuel kiss his temple as they walked along side each other heading back toward his house. He glanced toward Samuel as he released him soon feeling his hand slip into his own. They weren’t far from his house as they continued to walk. Micha knew springing this news upon Samuel wasn’t a good idea but he didn’t want Samuel to be lost if something happened to him. He didn’t know what his father wanted but after seven years, he didn’t think it was just a simple ‘hello’. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

He kept his eyes downcast as they walked back hand-in-hand. The conversation soon died, but he didn't mind. Samuel wouldn't badger Micha any further on the topic. He didn't want to accidentally open anymore old wounds. He may not know any more than Micha had told him, but he could understand the it was a touchy subject. It was similar to how Samuel felt about his family finding out he was gay or his past relationships. He didn't mind talking about it, but it wasn't something he could easily bring up over dinner and cocktails. The remainder of the walk was a silent one.
He followed behind him as they walked up the driveway and waited for Micha to unlock the door. The silence was slowly getting to him, he didn't want them to stay like this all night; and he was somewhat positive Micha wouldn't want to trapped in his head all night with these troubling thoughts.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"It was true that Micha did not want to spend the whole night in his head. He didn’t want to think about the what ifs either. Micha continued walking along side Samuel in silence however. He wasn’t trying to ignore Samuel; he simply was just at a loss for words at the moment. Micha knew Samuel had never really gone through what he had but he also knew that Samuel had bigger problems of his own at times.

The walk about to his house wasn’ long. Micha walked with Samuel up to his front door. He released Samuel’s hand as they got to the door. Micha slipped his hand into his pocket as he fished out his keys. He unlocked the door, as he slipped inside. Micha waited for Samuel to follow in after him before locking the door behind them. He moved to slip off his shoes before heading toward the kitchen. Micha had a small table island in his kitchen where he set his sandwich bag down. He moved to grab plates setting them on the island as well. Micha slipped toward the fridge as he opened it grabbed out the bottle of tea. He pulled out two new glasses and poured tea into them before replacing the bottle of tea back into the fridge. Micha grabbed the glasses setting them on the island. He grabbed his sandwich bag and pulled out his sandwich. Micha unwrapped his sandwich and set it on his plate. He shifted taking one of the seats on the island as he started in on his sandwich as he sat there. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

Waiting patiently beside the male he dazed out into the open street, wondering what he could do to turn things around. Right now he felt like he may of pried too much even though he hardly asked anything at all. He sighed softly as the male was opened, following inside like the males' shadow. Slipping out of his shoes he followed through the house and into the kitchen. Like Micha, he laid his bag on the table, but opted to stand instead of sit. Along with the guilt of asking things that didn't concern him, he was feeling a tad restless. Samuel quietly thanked the male as he handed him a glass of tea and began unwrapping his food. The smell of spice, onion, and melted cheese instantly filled his nose as he pealed back the paper wrapping. Picking up half of his sandwich he took a small bite, then smiling at the taste. It was surprisingly good. Better than the deli by his penthouse. Samuel continued to take three more bites before taking a quick glance towards Micha. Looking away he pulled his cup closer and took a sip of tea. "Feel like hitting up a bar tonight?" he asked randomly. "I know this place, it's kind of a hole of in the wall. But the drinks are good and the music won't make your ears bleed." Samuel looked back up to the male, a small smile gracing his lips. He knew it was a rather odd thing to ask. But, he thought getting out might do them both a bit of good. He liked staying in with Micha, but tonight seemed like it was needed. Perhaps a little beer and a game of pool could help loosen them both up.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"Silence settled between them once again as they entered his house. He didn’t mind the silence though it did make him a tad aware of other noises in the kitchen. Micha glad toward Samuel as he remained standing instead of sitting. He didn’t mind as he continued to eat. Micha felt a little uneasy now that things were laid out between them. He wondered if he should have just kept his personal business to himself after all he didn’t even know what it meant. Micha could simply just be over reacting as he did sometimes. He shifted a little fidgeting as he sat there. As he sat there Micha could feel Samuel’s eyes on him. However was surprised him more was the words that came out of mouth. He raised an eyebrow at Samuel’s question. Micha saw the smile grazing Samuel’s lips as well. ”You want to go to a bar?” He asked surprised by the question but not put off by it. Micha knew his mood had gone from good to low which of course had probably ruined Samuel’s mood as well. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

Samuel would never blame Micha for the ruined mood. If it was anyone's fault, then it was his thanks to his damn curiosity. He could understand that this was a sensitive topic for the male and one he should likely avoid. Unless Micha brought it up first. Switching subjects, he couldn't help but laugh at the look he was given. It was indeed an odd question but Micha looked like he could really use the drink. "You make it sound like I've never been to one before." he replied. Samuel had been to his share of bars before opening the club. He found that he preferred some of the quieter ones compared to the modern popular ones his brothers liked to take him to. While they were pretty to look at he almost always came home with a headache from the crowds than the drink in his hand."I just thought you might want to get a bit. Maybe take your mind off of work and stuff. But if you don't want to it's cool. We could watch something on Netflix or something." Returning his attention to his food, he picked up his sandwich for another bite. Still, he hoped he'd let him take him out. At this moment he wanted nothing more then to get them both out of their heads and back to normal.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"Micha knew Samuel was worried about him and didn't blame him for his curiosity. After all there were times he was curious when he should have just left his thoughts unanswered. It wasn't that the question surprised him but that it was coming from Samuel. He found that Samuel was a little judging of his drinking habits and was now offering to get him drunk. Micha didn't mind the offer but only found it amusing. He nodded lightly smiling at Samuel's words. "Yes well it's not as if you've ever been open to drinking before." Micha spoke teasing him lightly. He continued to eat not wanting to be drinking on an empty stomach if they did end up going. Micha was all in for going to the bar after all it would clear his mind and give them something to do. He shook his head lightly as Samuel spoke. "We can go. I don't mind the idea of going to a bar." Micha spoke taking Samuel up on his offer."

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

If he seemed judging, he didn't mean to be. But in all honesty, he didn't see the point in drinking to get drunk. There was nothing wrong with a casual drink and that was exactly what he was offering. When Micha spoke, he he couldn't deny the fact that he had never offered. In part though, when they were together he was usually just getting off of work and had been manning the bar all night. The thought of even seeing another drink made him sick. But since it had been a few days since he last worked and seeing how sour both of their moods were, a drink seemed a bit appropriate. "Blame my job." he said, teasing him right back. "Still doesn't mean that I can't enjoy a glass now and again." Samuel smiled right back at the male as he spoke. He found it amusing how easily Micha agreed to going out when he made his next suggestion. He kind of figured he would agree to the first option if he mentioned anything involving television or a movie since he wasn't much of a fan for either. When Micha agreed a few moments later, he leaned across the island to press a kiss to his cheek. "It'll be great. We'll have a few beers, relax, and maybe I'll even get a chance to kick your a** at some pool." he said, teasing him once more. Pulling away from the male, Samuel picked up his sandwich and continued eating.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"Micha knew Samuel wasn’t being judgmental; he was merely not the type to enjoy drinking for point of getting drunk. At times he could be a casual drinker as well though he could be known for getting drunk if he allowed himself to. When it came to their jobs, Micha understood that Samuel probably didn’t want to get off work and have a few drinks himself. He laughed softly as Samuel spoke teasing him back. Micha nodded lightly at his words. ”That it doesn’t.” He spoke smirking lightly as he teased Samuel back. The idea of watching television or a movie was lost on him after all he didn’t own a television. He wondered if Samuel noticed this on his tour around his house or not. Micha smiled as Samuel kissed his cheek. He nodded a little but couldn’t help but laugh at his words as he was teased. ”Mmm. Yes…After all our last game was never finished.” Micha spoke teasing Samuel as he grinned lightly as he picked up his sandwich to start on it again. He knew how their last game went, or rather how it was cut off short by his need to dismiss their bet and get what he wanted. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

Samuel was very much aware that Micha didn't have a television. But thanks to the power of the internet, Samuel could easily enjoy things such as Netflix on his iPhone. He didn't take the time to remind the male though since it was irrelevant. Instead, he grinned as he continued to tease him. He remembered their last game well. It was a short one but he enjoyed it nonetheless. "And whose fault was that?" he replied with a smirk. Taking a quick bite of his sandwich, his tongue darted out to lick his lips. Samuel didn't mind the way their last game ended. He often wondered if things went differently would they be sitting - or in Samuel's case standing - here now.Sure he'd probably still see Micha in his club and they might flirt from time to time, but he doubt they'd be as close as they were now. Much less dating. He kept on eating until he was finished with his food. He couldn't help but feel a tad relieved that he'd only gone the sandwich as he was feeling pretty full. Crumpling up the paper, Samuel leaned against the island and sipped on what was left of his tea.