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 Posted: Mon Jul 24, 2017 5:12 pm
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
Stalling was never a good sign. He knew this. He'd stood in the same spot that Micha was now and it was never a good feeling. But he couldn't do this here. Not here, not in the club. With the noise and the crowd. It needed to be just the two of them. Walking briskly, he made his way outside the club. Hearing the males voice was hard. He swore he could hear every ounce of emotion in his voice, knew that it was all he could do to not just hang up on him this very second. He stood on the sidewalk, waiting for a cab and unable to answer. He needed to say something. This was his chance and he was ruining it. "It's true." he said calmly. There was no use in lying. He didn't want to lie. Micha deserved better than that. He didn't care about Avery or his meager taunting. He was a brat that needed to be put in his place.
The silence on the other end of the line was deafening. Samuel waited and waited, wondering what sort of hell he was going to receive. Mentally he prepared himself. Whatever it was, he could handle it. At least that is what he was telling himself. Not seeing any cabs, Samuel crossed the street and started to walk down the street. It didn't matter to him that he didn't know where he was. Or how far he was from his hotel. He'd find his way back eventually. Right now, he just wanted to keep talking to Micha. He wished he could see his face, know what sort of expression he was making. He really screwed up this time.
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Posted: Mon Jul 24, 2017 5:26 pm
The sound of silence only concerned him more. Micha knew silence was never a good sign. He already dreaded the answer but needed to know. It didn’t take long to get the answer he was waiting for. Micha was struck, he felt as if everything was crashing down on him. He heard the calm tone in Samuel’s voice as he responded. Micha couldn’t face the problem at hand right now. He merely hung up. Micha didn’t even think about it as he threw his phone across the room. He heard it smash but he didn’t care. Micha didn’t not want to speak to Samuel right now, or any time soon.
His mind was currently in a haze. He barely noticed until it was too late. Micha had destroyed his studio. His current canvas had been destroyed. Paint brushes and tubes were thrown around the room. Paint was splattered on the floor and wall in a few places. He didn’t stop until there was nothing left to destroy. MIcha finally collapsed as he leaned against the wall. He breathed a little heavily knowing he had over done it.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Mon Jul 24, 2017 5:54 pm
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
As painful as the truth was, it needed to be told. All rights as his boyfriend were cut off as soon as the words left his mouth. The silence seemed to stretch for ages before the faint beeping of his phone indicated that Micha had hung up on him. Samuel held his phone there for what must have been a full two minutes. The silence was deafening and weighed down on him like a ton of bricks. After another minute, Samuel tucked his phone away. He continued his walk like nothing happened. He breathed normally, his body still functioned correctly, and he didn't feel the need to cry or throw a tantrum. He felt.....numb. Like maybe he was simply going into shock. He couldn't really say. So he just walked.
Almost an hour later, Samuel had somehow managed to hail a cab and find his hotel. He paid his fee, stepped out and made a beeline for the elevator. The entire time he had been in the cab he held his phone between his hands as though debating whether or not to message Micha. He could only imagine what he must be feeling. He was almost certain he'd never hear from him again. Riding up to the eighth floor, he followed the path to his room, and slipped inside. It was no use. Micha wasn't going to call him. They were over. Nearly a year together and he ruined it all in one fell swoop. Guess it was bound to happen. All those years of getting screwed over, it must have been time that he do the screwing. Samuel stripped down to his t-shirt and boxers and sat at the edge of the bed. In his head the words "It's over." kept repeating in his head. The weight of the situation slowly sinking in. He wondered how long it would take for the emotion to really hit him? Would he cry? Throw a tantrum? Or maybe just sit in a warm bath, blaring opera music sulking in his own self-loathing. Who knows. But the longer he sat there, the more it dawned on him how much he ******** up.
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Posted: Mon Jul 24, 2017 6:23 pm
It didn’t surprise him that Samuel had cheated. He knew things had been rough for them lately. Micha didn’t blame him at least not right now. Everything was still trying to be comprehended in his mind. Samuel had cheated on him..with another man. He didn’t know what to think all that came to mind was he wasn't good enough. Micha didn’t want to speak to Samuel, he didn’t know if he could. He needed to think things through and right now Samuel’s words were playing over in his mind.
After about an hour, he had managed to pull himself off the floor. Micha went back into his bedroom. He grabbed the bottle of alcohol by his bed and drowned it all. Micha didn’t care about the alcohol, all he cared was that Samuel had betrayed him. He knew that the business trip would be difficult for them, but not it seemed he should have gone along. At least then he could keep an eye on him. Micha flopped down on the bed, knowing that it wasn’t worth dwelling on things. He ended up passing out after a while.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Mon Jul 24, 2017 7:09 pm
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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How long had he sat there? Was it an hour? When he blinked, he felt the tears falling down his cheek. He touched his cheek to find it wet. When did he start crying? He couldn't remember. Wiping his face, Samuel stood from the bed. He needed to shower. He had work in the morning. Sniffling, Samuel shuffled into the bathroom. He stared at his ugly image. His face was tear stained, his eyes were red, and he looked downright miserable. It all felt so wrong. He wanted to talk to Micha. See him. He wanted.......he wanted to go home. If only that were an option. Samuel stepped into the shower and stayed beneath the spray, letting the warmth wash over him. He stayed like that until the water started to run cold.
Another ten minutes pass and Samuel emerged from the shower clean and dripping wet. He came out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist. He picked up his phone, hoping for some kind of message or missed call. Seeing nothing, his heart sank further. "I'm sorry." he wrote. "Fine be mad. But don't end up in the hospital again." Send. "Micha.......Micha..... Send. "Micha I know you're drinking. Don't do that." Send. "Micha? Are you reading these?" Send. "Mmmmmiiiiiiiiccccccchhhhhaaaaaa!!!!!!!!" Send. "If it makes you feel any better, he was a terrible lay." Send. Samuel plopped his phone on the bed as he went about getting dressed. He pulled out a pair of maroon boxers and the same grey pants he wore to bed last night. He laid down beside his phone, picking it up to write one last message. "I love you, Micha." Now, to play the waiting game.
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Posted: Mon Jul 24, 2017 9:04 pm
One by one they collected the items needed. He walked beside the male, not really caring what was placed into the basket. It was all ate the same, so no use fussing. After getting the items they needed from the dairy section, he basket was heavier. But not enough to bother him. Though it seemed Liam thought differently. Alaine pouted a bit as the basket was taken from his hand. "I had it." he whined. But it didn't matter. After the male took the basket, he clasped his hand once more. They walked a little down the aisle in search of their next item. When the male questioned him, he thought for a moment. Both were fine with him. But since they were to be having waffles and that alone could be so filling, he'd rather keep the other food options light. "Let's do bacon." he replied, smiling. Walking over to the deli meats, Alaine browsed the various bacon brands. "Get that brand." he said, pointing towards the Wright's bacon.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2017 3:05 pm
Shock. That’s all he was feeling right now. Micha was in no mood to talk to Samuel, plus he had destroyed his phone by throwing it against the wall. He didn’t think he would be able to speak to him anyways. Micha lay there after downing the alcohol. He knew Samuel didn’t like his drinking but he didn’t care. It wasn’t as Samuel was here to control him.
As he lay there he started to get drowsy. However Micha couldn’t keep his eyes over. Sleep hung of him, looming until he finally subsided. While he slept, Micha dreamed, he dreamed hoping everything had been fake and a lie.
Morning came and went, Micha slept through the night. He woke with a sense of nausea. Micha spoke as he slipped out of the bed running to the bathroom. He knew he had consumed too much. Micha immediately drained his stomach as he hung over the toilet. He groaned at the feeling. Micha finished as he went to the sink to brush his teeth. Standing there everything hit all at once, Samuel had cheated on him. He stood there for a good long minute letting everything sink in. Micha ran a hand through his hair as it was sticking on end. He had an urge to call Samuel to hear his voice to know everything last night was only a dream but he knew it wasn’t.
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Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2017 3:13 pm
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Taking the basket from Alaine, he saw him pout. He smiled at him as he leaned over and kissed his lips before pulling away. ”I know.” Liam spoke smiling at him. He continued walking as he headed back toward the deli area to find the meat they needed. Liam nodded as Alaine spoke. He knew that something heavy wouldn’t do, so bacon was the perfect choice. Liam smiled as Alaine spoke, he reached over grabbing the bacon packaging and tossing it into the basket. ”Good, now the flour.” He spoke leading Alaine toward the baking section. Liam preferred pancakes from scratch, he didn’t like using the preboxed stuff.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2017 5:55 pm
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
Ring.....ring. C'mon damnit ring! Those were just one of his last thoughts before drifting off to sleep. Samuel knew he messed up. And with a p***k to boot. He laid there staring at his phone, sending a few messages every few minutes. It was desperate and pathetic. But that was exactly what he was right in this moment. Desperate. Alone. Pathetic. Why didn't he just lie? It would have been so much easier to lie. All through the night he tossed and turned. Throughout the he awoke for a few minutes just as the realization would sink in. He would curl back into a ball and try to sleep.
By the time morning came, Samuel was more tired than ever. His phone lay half-dead beside him. He frowned at the black screen. Not a single message was sent back. Grabbing the nearest pillows, he covered his face and let out an agitated cry. Why didn't he text him back?! Sitting up, he rubbed his eyes and shuffled into the bathroom. His eyes were red and his hair a mess. He splashed a bit of water on his face but didn't bother shaving. He simply brushed his teeth and went to get dressed. He didn't have to meet with Nicolas until later in the day. So he had the whole morning to himself. He dressed in loose dark blue jeans and a white tee-shirt. Moving over to his luggage, he was determined to get in contact with the male.
After a little digging, Samuel pulled out his laptop. He waited for the device to load. But once it was ready he clicked on his e-mail then the "compose" option. His fingers hovered over the keyboard. What could he tell him that he hadn't already sent in a text message? He had cheated on him. He would be surprised if ever heard from the male again. But just in case, Samuel left him a very short message. "Hate me as much as you need to. But I will wait for you. I love you. - Samuel" Hitting send, he rose from the desk and went in search of a cigarette. He scowled as he realized he had left them back at Phoenix. He wasn't willing to travel that far just to smoke. So instead he threw on a leather jacket, grabbed his phone, wallet, and room key and headed out.
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Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2017 6:51 pm
At the moment it was too early to tell how he felt. Part of him wanted to forgive Samuel, and the other part never wanted to see or speak to him again. Micha wasn’t sure right now. He needed to clear his head but for the most part he needed to get his phone fixed. Micha had no way of communicating with Samuel at the moment. After cleaning himself up, Micha went into his studio. He found his phone on the floor, with the screen smashed.
Leaving his studio he went into his office. He didn’t bother flipping on the light as he went to his desk. Micha sighed softly more to himself. He booted up his laptop as he sat there. Micha waited as he he grabbed a pack of cigarettes. He pulled one from the pack slipping it between his lips. Grabbing the lighter he lit the cigarette and set the lighter a side.
Sitting there he didn’t expect to have too many messages. However what surprised him the most was Samuel’s message. Pulling it open, he read the message over a few times. Even in the end, it sounded as if it was his fault he was mad at Samuel. Micha deleted the message annoyed.
He sat back in his chair as he puffed on the cigarette until about nothing was left but the filter. Stubbing it out in the astray, Micha went back to his bedroom to get dressed. He needed to go find himself a new cell phone today, not because it was his only line of communication, but because he needed to finish his conversation with Samuel, even though he didn’t want.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2017 7:24 pm
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
Walking through the hotel and going out the lobby, it was a beautiful morning. The sky was clear, the birds were chirping, and everyone was going about their day. It pissed him off. Before leaving, Samuel had asked the front desk where a convenience store might be. He followed the directions he was given, going up the street and around the corner. In the middle of the street was a small shop advertising snacks, drinks, lottery tickets, and cigarettes. He pulled open the door, going through the aisles. He plucked up a few food items for a quick breakfast along with a cup of coffee and a new lighter. Then took his purchase to the counter and asking for two packs of Gauloises. Paying for the items, he took the plastic bag and left the store.
Outside, he couldn't wait any longer. He needed to smoke. He ripped open the pack and slipped one of the little cancer sticks between his lips. Lighting up, he inhaled deeply. <********> he sighed. The nicotine calmed him just enough to not do anything stupid. Well.....more stupid. Feeling the need to stretch his legs, he decided to follow the sidewalk around the block. A bit of fresh air and morning buzz would help. He wondered if Micha got his text messages. Would he even read them? Probably not. He probably wouldn't even read his email. He really screwed up this time. He thought about calling him. But he wasn't sure that would do him any good either.
Sighing heavily, Samuel continued around the block until he was once again outside his hotel. Stomping out his cigarette, he walked back in the lobby. He gave a small nod of recognition to the person who had helped him earlier. But he wasn't in the mood for any casual conversation. Samuel got on the first elevator available and rode all the way up to his room. Pushing inside, he plopped down in front of his computer and refreshed his e-mail. Nothing. Maybe he hadn't read it yet. Yeah, that was it. Samuel stayed in his seat and pulled out the items he bought. He wasn't hungry. He knew he needed to eat, but he just didn't have it in him to eat. All he wanted was to talk to Micha.
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Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2017 7:27 pm
He was a bit embarrassed to be kissed so suddenly. But he did nothing to stop the male either. His cheeks flushed and he huffed a bit more as they made their way towards the bacon. After making a selection, it too was thrown in the basket. Alaine nodded and allowed the male to lead him towards the baking aisle. They took their time walking through the store, and turning down the correct aisle. Walking past an uncaring employee, the two walked down to the baking good where they were faced with four different brands of flour. Once again, he was uncaring what was purchased. Releasing the males hand for a moment, Alaine grabbed a one pound bag of the in-house brand. Figuring that would be good enough. He placed that in the basket with everything else. "that's not too heavy, is it?" he asked. If it was, he didn't mind carrying a few of the items.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2017 8:07 pm
After about an hour on the subway, Micha found the right spot. He got off at the next spot, walking out of the subway and into the fresh morning air. Micha had his old cell phone on him, at least then he could replace the new one with his old SIM card. Once he was out of the subway underground, he started down the street. His cell phone carrier wasn’t anywhere near his house. Micha had to go almost twenty miles to get to the nearest one. He didn’t mind however he needed it now.
Finally having a new cell phone, Micha walked down the street. As soon as he had entered the new SIM card, he started to get messages. Micha walked down the street, he found himself in a nearby diner. He needed breakfast, but also somewhere to sit.
Once he was settled in a booth, Micha had ordered himself a veggie omelette with bacon. He opened his messages looking them over again. They were all from Samuel, no surprise. Micha sighed as he read them, Samuel seemed to know him too well. Especially since he had drank about half a bottle of alcohol.
Don’t say something you don’t mean. If you truly loved me this wouldn’t have happened. He texted, a little cruel but he didn’t care. Micha meant it, every word. If samuel truly loved him, he would have kept it in his pants.
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Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2017 8:35 pm
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
How much longer did Micha intend to make him wait? He sat at the desk, mindlessly eating the food he bought although not really tasting it. The empty wrappers lay about the desk and floor surround him. He had drained his coffee and gone through almost half a pack of cigarettes. Where was he? he wondered. Time went on and Samuel didn't feel like leaving his room. There were still a few hours left until he needed to get ready and meet with Nicolas. He didn't want to go. It was more just getting dinner and talking about last night than an actual meeting.
An hour passes and Samuel has easily finished off his first pack of cigarettes. His lungs were going to hate him later. But he didn't care. Right now he didn't really care about anything. He was angry at himself, ready to kill Avery, and worried about Micha. It had been awhile since they stopped talking to each other like this. But times were different. Back then it was because Samuel was being stubborn and stupid over something petty. In the hour that passed he found himself sitting by the window with an ashtray on his knee and watching the city below. His phone sat on the table beside him on charge.
When his phone buzzed, he jumped. He quickly set the ashtray aside and snatched up his phone. He wasn't expecting words of love, of comfort, or even acceptance of his apology. What he read was something he should have expected. Still, the words cut deep and his heart sank. "Then I guess I didn't really love you. Good to know." hitting send, he slammed his phone back down on the table and moved to lay face down on the bed. Anger and sadness boiled inside him but he wasn't going to cry. He wouldn't scream. This was his doing. Swallowing his feelings, he buried his head into his pillow, and closed his eyes. What he wouldn't give to make this all go away.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2017 8:46 pm
Sitting there he didn’t know what to expect. He was mad at Samuel, but even madder at himself. Micha knew that talking over text wasn’t the right answer but he knew if he heard Samuel’s voice it would all crash down. He would forget everything just because he loved him.
It didn’t seem long before he got his answer. Micha found it as no surprise. He knew Samuel didn’t mean them, or if he did it was a cruel joke. Don’t ******** with me..I know damn well your lying...If you didn’t care for me then you wouldn’t have even told the truth. The truth hurt but it was better than a lie. Micha didn’t want to be lied to. He hated and Samuel knew it. After everything, he never once lied to Samuel why start now.
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