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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Mon Sep 04, 2017 5:45 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 05, 2017 3:12 am
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【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ, ░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░
sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
In hindsight, Samuel had been overbearing and overprotective in a time when he thought Micha needed it the most. Paris had been a complete disaster and he shared as much blame in their inevitable end as Micha did. The thought of tomorrow was indeed terrifying. For what if this were to be nothing more than a lovely dream? A part of him always wondered if someday he might crack under the pressure of his loneliness. But no, he was real, here, and in his arms. Tomorrow they would have to go back to their real lives. It would be a challenge that was for sure. But in order to move forward, Samuel wanted to start fresh. If something were to go wrong, he wanted to be told. If he was being too clingy, he needed to hear that too. They weren't going to work out if they fell into the same pattern of things where they left off. When he spoke, his were not of something his last years self would have said. Most things about him had not changed, but there were a few that had and Micha needed to see that. He continued to hold the male as he leaned against him, and listened when he spoke. "Well, at least you know what you want. That's a start." he replied. Samuel relaxed in the tub while watching the male for a bit. The water was nice and it felt good to just be like this, in this moment. After a few minutes passed, he sighed. "Do you think our breaking up was inevitable?" he asked curiously. "Like say if what happened, didn't happen. Do you think we would have just found something else to bicker over and end it then? Or would we have gotten over it and last year never would have happened?" It was a strange question, this he knew. But it was something that was weighing on his mind. They weren't even trying to talk about Paris. Almost as if it were the elephant in the room that was never supposed to be talked about.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Sep 05, 2017 7:02 pm
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【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ, ░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░
sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
Out of everything that went wrong in their relationship, their last night together in Paris was the one that stood out the most. Samuel could tell that Micha was avoiding the issue. And for what it was worth, he couldn't blame him in doing so. But still it was nagging at him. Like an itch he just couldn't scratch. They had never really addressed what happened. At least not in that extensive of detail. Again, he understood why. What sane person did want to hear the horny details of their significant other with another person. Perhaps there was someone in the world who did, but definitely not Micha.
After questioning the male he looked down as he again shifted in his lap. His arms temporarily released him while he adjusted to face him once more. When he finished arms looped back around him. He listened to him sigh and begin to speak. It didn't surprise him at all to find out that Micha too thought something else would happen to break them up. He wished that a little bickering was all that happened. That wasn't the case unfortunately. He nodded quietly as he continued. When he was done, he couldn't help but sigh. "You know I'm still surprised you even came to Paris...After Ave...ah, I mean, after our phone call...I didn't think I was going to see you again." he replied, like Micha he kept his eyes on him while he spoke. "Even when you did leave, y'know I couldn't bring myself to blame you.....As much as it hurt, I knew I deserved it......I should have gone after you."
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Sep 05, 2017 8:55 pm
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【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ, ░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░░
sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
He shouldn't be wanting to talking about this. In fact this probably be the last thing he ever wanted to talk about with Micha. But he couldn't help himself. All year, he'd thought about that night. It was constantly at the forefront of his mind playing over like a bad movie. He blamed that memory in particular for why he could never forget Micha. Samuel was well aware of how much he hurt Micha. There were no words, no gestures, nothing in the world he could to take that back. He watched the male as he nodded and listened to him speak. His words were a bit surprising. He remembered last year how Micha wanted to know absolutely nothing of his encounter with the male. And a part of him thanked him for that. He was positive that might have been the only reason Micha had not caused any bodily harm to him as mad as he was. " I was lonely that you kept pushing me away and I felt like I was loosing you. But I want you to know I didn't go directly looking for anyone. So please, listen to me.....My plane landed close to eight o'clock that night. It took about an hour to get the hotel and I went down to the bar after check-in. My intentions weren't to get drunk or look for guys. I just wanted a night cap to help me sleep and then he came up to me. We chatted, had some drinks, and before I knew it I was taking him back to my room. From what I can remember, the sex was enjoyable but his personality after was god awful.....So I guess you could say to a point I did enjoy it." Samuel paused a moment to study the male. If ever there was a time to hit him or say something, it would be now. After another moment passed, he decide to continue. "To answer your last question though, I've never been tired of you. But I did think you were tired of me.....I didn't want to be screwed over again and not by you." His voice grew quiet and he at last looked away. He was ashamed for what he did.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Sep 05, 2017 10:18 pm
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Sep 05, 2017 11:31 pm
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Thu Sep 07, 2017 9:19 am
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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