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Posted: Sun Jun 04, 2023 3:12 pm
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Posted: Sun Jun 04, 2023 6:54 pm
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![User Image](https://i.imgur.com/jdRgtZP.jpg) Samuel knew that Micha had his demons, but to what extent he never knew. So rarely did they talk openly with one another. Every time they did, it felt like all the air had been sucked from the room and it was hard to communicate properly without making the other angry or upset. He could tell that this was a difficult subject for Micha to discuss, so he was careful in what he was saying. He really was trying to understand what life had been like for Micha and where things had gone wrong. In all his imagining of Micha's life, his mind had never allowed him to go to such a dark place as the reality they discussed. Even with things as bad as they were before separating. When Micha had walked out, he seemed so sure of himself. Perhaps that was why he only thought about him going out into the world and coming out on top. Because anything less just didn't sound like the Micha he knew.
After listening to the male speak, he found himself wanting to know more. Clearly he had survived that dreadful night, but he still didn't have the full story of how things went from there. As gently as he could, he asked him to continue. He finished smoking his cigarette while Micha once again laid himself bare for all the world to see. It hurt to know that MIcha had replaced his phone, but he tried his best not to linger on that part of the story. Instead, he listened to him recall how his friend came to meet him and stayed while he recovered. When he was finished, was surprised to find himself still curious and wanting to know more. Stubbing out the butt of his cigarette, Samuel reached for another one from the pack. He repeated the process of slipping it between his lips and lighting it. Before placing the pack back on his nightstand, he held it out in offering towards Micha. "Grisha, you've talked about him before. He was the guy in your room the other morning." he said, simply. It wasn't a question or assumption of anything, just a simple statement as he recalled the large, long haired man that tried to deter him from seeing Micha. "How come you chose to stay with him? Wouldn't a facility have been safer for detoxing?" he continued, trying hard to keep his thoughts organized as he vocalized them one by one.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jun 04, 2023 7:53 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 05, 2023 11:01 am
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![User Image](https://i.imgur.com/jdRgtZP.jpg) Indeed, he had his secrets, but he also shared them. He didn't keep everything hidden away as he used to. He knew that there were still many things they needed to discuss and he would get to them in time. Right now he worried for Micha. He hated that he had kept so much hidden away from him all this time. Samuel was trying his best to understand and say the right thing without causing more issues between them. Even so he wasn't sure he was exactly doing a great job with just that.
As he finished off his cigarette, he started with a new one and held the pack out in offering. When Micha refused, he set the pack on the bed between them and continued with his line of questioning. His words were not ones he was unfamiliar with. He, himself, used to think similar things before seeking out professional help. With the amount of trauma Micha had been through, he seemed like a great candidate for talk therapy. He didn't understand his objection to it and wasn't sure he would answer if asked. Blowing out a billow of smoke, Samuel moved back to sit at the head of the bed. He leaned against the headboard in thought. He didn't know what else to say do. It seemed like he was only making things worse. He was quiet for another few minutes, watching the tobacco burn as he held the stick in his hand.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Jun 05, 2023 2:39 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 05, 2023 6:08 pm
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![User Image](https://i.imgur.com/jdRgtZP.jpg) By no means was Samuel perfect, and he knew that Micha wasn't either. In no way did he ever indicate that he wanted him to be either. At least, he didn't think he did, if so it wasn't intentional. Samuel wanted them to have a good and honest relationship with one another. But that couldn't be done if he felt as though he were walking on eggshells every time they had a serious conversation. He didn't understand why Micha wouldn't talk to someone. He knew the idea of baring his soul to a perfect stranger could be a bit daunting at first. In his own experience, he found that once he started opening up to that stranger it got easier. He could just sit there and complain without any judgement if he wanted, choosing whether or not he wanted to hear the feedback that was offered. Samuel didn't just come to love therapy overnight. It had been months of work, choosing whether or not he wanted to continue feeling like he was drowning or get some help. Very easily he could have done what Micha did, if not something worse.
Leaning against the headboard, Samuel didn't know what else to say. The one question standing out in his mind, he was too afraid to ask. He didn't want to know the answer. He sat quietly a few minutes longer, watching the smoke rise and swirl between his fingers. He soon felt a shift in the bed as Micha rose from the bed and went into the bathroom. He thought to follow him, but didn't think the attention was wanted right this moment. Samuel sighed heavily as the door was shut, rendering their conversation to be over.
Stubbing out his cigarette, Samuel listened to the sounds of running water as the shower was turned on. He hated this gross, heavy feeling that weighed on them both. It made him wonder what would happen now. He didn't want Micha to go, but he couldn't force him to stay either. Perhaps it was for the best. A little alone time while they wrapped their heads around this conversation and they assess things as needed when they were both feeling better. While the man bathed, he contemplated going in to work later tonight. Work had always been a good distraction when he needed time to think. It wasn't as though he didn't have things that could be done anyway. Nodding to himself, it seemed like a good plan. Let Micha go do his thing, he would go to work, and they could talk again once their minds were clear. As anxiety clawed at the edges of his being, Samuel grabbed at the pack and pulled out a third cigarette while he waited for the man to return.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Jun 05, 2023 6:39 pm
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Jun 06, 2023 4:29 am
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Jun 06, 2023 2:44 pm
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Jun 06, 2023 6:25 pm
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Posted: Tue Jun 06, 2023 8:18 pm
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![User Image](https://i.imgur.com/jdRgtZP.jpg) He wanted nothing more than to pull Micha back inside and convince him to stay. Instead he allowed him to leave, watching sadly as Micha made his way across the yard and down the driveway. It wasn’t long before Micha reached the gate and was beyond his line of sight. Samuel stood there a few minutes longer, hoping that Micha would change his mind and come back. When he was sure that he was gone, he quietly came back inside and locked the door.
Samuel made way back upstairs and flopped onto his bed. He grabbed a pillow, pulled it close, and groaned into it. He didn’t know when or where he was going to see Micha again, but hopefully it wouldn’t be too long. For now he would give him his space. Clinging to the pillow, Samuel laid there, staring blankly at the headboard, their conversation running through his mind over and over again on a loop. He contemplated the ways he could have handled this better and what he could have said differently.
The hours went by and at some point he must have fallen asleep as his room had darkened from when he last remembered. Sitting up, he looked at his clock and found it had been nearly five hours since Micha had left. Sighing, he ran a hand through his hair. He missed Micha already and wished he were here. He didn’t want to bother him if he wasn’t ready to talk just yet. Pushing himself out of bed and in need of something to do, Samuel started to dress for work. He picked a grey suit with a light blue shirt, opting for something more casual than his usual three piece look. When he was finished dressing he walked into the bathroom to run a comb through his hair and brush his teeth. After that, he grabbed his phone, keys, and wallet and handed downstairs.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2023 4:28 pm
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