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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Jan 21, 2012 10:51 am
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Posted: Sat Jan 21, 2012 11:01 am
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Sun Jan 22, 2012 12:12 am
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Ạᶅαιие ᴄɦɋмβеяѕ "Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."
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Posted: Sun Jan 22, 2012 10:46 am
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Tue Jan 24, 2012 7:45 pm
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Ạᶅαιие ᴄɦɋмβеяѕ "Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."
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Posted: Tue Jan 24, 2012 8:03 pm
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Wed Jan 25, 2012 12:58 am
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Samuel Joshua Davidson“The truth is messy. It's raw and uncomfortable. You can't blame people for preferring lies.” The longer he talked to the male, the more he was getting used to hearing the male moving around. Whatever he was doing, was none of his business nor did he truly care to find out. The soft clinking and sounds of heavy glass thudding made him suspicious that the man might be drinking again. He knew the male had drunk alot while at the club, but whatever he did at home was his business and didn't concern him. He shook his head as the male agreed with him, knowing his words to be true. Gotta love those rich bastards in this city, they get a little money and think they own everything. How he'd love to just spit in their drinks and ban them for life. Unfortunately, he didn't need a lawsuit on his hands and throwing them out was the most he could do. He smirked as the male continued to speak, oh how he wished he could have some of the men he worked with. All the men Sam had to deal with were wanna-be players or dumbass jocks trying to show off to other jocks, the idiotic scene kids, and whatever other mess crawls into his club. On a bad day, he had a right mind to up the age limit; twenty-one and over sounded good. Twenty-five and over sounded even better. Sadly though, it was too late for that. Knocking the age limit would lose half his clientele and mean he'd have to fire a third of his staff. He nodded as the male went on, knowing he couldn't see what he was doing. "If the whiny models get on your nerves there's always landscape or random urban stuff you could do. Some of the best expressions can come from the people who aren't even aware of having they're having their pictures taken.Just something to think about." he said. He was glad the male would think about everything he'd told him thus far, if he was a good rookie, he'd hate to see him give up over a few dumb newbs.
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Posted: Wed Jan 25, 2012 2:35 am
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Ạᶅαιие ᴄɦɋмβеяѕ "Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jan 25, 2012 9:53 am
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Posted: Sun Jan 29, 2012 5:03 am
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Ạᶅαιие ᴄɦɋмβеяѕ "Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jan 29, 2012 2:08 pm
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Posted: Sun Jan 29, 2012 10:49 pm
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Ạᶅαιие ᴄɦɋмβеяѕ "Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."
▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄▀▄ It wasn't like Alaine was uncomfortable about talking about his past relationships, but if the male was wanting explicit details it was a no-go. He'd told that to the police more times then he cared to admit. Not that he thought the male would want to know those kinds of things to begin with, but still, one could never be too sure. He looked down at the male, sitting up as he felt him shift beside him. Looking at him curiously before he spoke. He could tell the male was embarrassed and wondered what it was he had to tell him. When the male did speak, he nodded. He hadn't asked the male about his sex life, but it seemed he was about to find out. If it gave him a better insight about the male, he didn't mind, at least it let him know his boyfriend wasn't a slut. He listened as the male went on, telling him why his relationships didn't last, and that was where he worried. He could understand not wanting a relationship that was entirely about sex, but sadly, sex was one of his major outlets and could honestly say he'd had his share of relationships that were just that. Samuel having been one of his more physical relations. "Guess that makes me a slut." he replied, keeping his voice low so only Liam could hear. He didn't need the entire restaurant knowing his sex life. "My last few relationships were nothing but physical. Just for future reference, you should probably know, I have two rules; one, I never touch anyone who refuses to use a condom. And two, I never touch anyone who doesn't have proof that they're clean. I've already had my share of STD's and trust it wasn't fun." It wasn't like he was planning on sleeping with Liam this week, or right after their date, but he didn't mind knowing the males past. At least if he had something he could warn him and let him know ahead of time. Alaine had gotten a good share of his crud through the years. Sure using a condom was a pain and a complete mood killer, but honestly, he'd rather go through the annoyance of using one than go through the annoyance that could be a burning a*****e and an itchy d**k. No man, nor woman for that matter was worth that little hell.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Jan 30, 2012 4:00 am
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Posted: Mon Jan 30, 2012 4:09 am
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Sat Feb 04, 2012 4:19 am
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Ạᶅαιие ᴄɦɋмβеяѕ "Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."
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