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to most people, i seem very emo and dark. there is a reason. my life has been very complicated, deppressive and heart-breaking. plus, everything hit me at the same time...

when i was about 6 or 7, 5 or 4 years ago, things went wrong. my Mamaw got cancer. my uncle was being falsly charged for jail. me and my mother had it rough. several other problems had also started to surface.plus, my older sister had been taken away by her jackass father.

when i was about 7, 8, or 9. things erupted into chaos now. my uncle was in prison for something that wasn't his fault. my mamaw was dead. i was dazed and confused. we all we're heart-broken. my papaw's back is paining him. and many more problems have arison.plus, i hadn't seen my sister or even had any adequet sign that she was even on earth.


so, dont hate me just because you dont understand me, think i'm just another pretty little blonde girl who can be pushed around, or some other ignorant and completely obsessive and lying ideas! they're all wrong! sure, i'm dark, sure i'm one of yin, sure i'll beat the crap out of you if you get on my flipping nerves. sure i'll bite you like a vampire. sure i have sharp teeth. sure i'm small. sure i dont weigh much. sure i'm skinnier than most people. sure i'm fast. sure i'm pretty. sure i can draw. sure i can write stories. sure i'm blonde. sure i'm a natural blonde. sure i'm emo. sure i'm punk. sure i'm skater. sure i'm rocker. sure i'm from west virginia. sure i'm southern. sure i'm a redneck. sure i'm a hillbilly. sure i'm a hick. sure i'd rather have a dog as a companian than people. sure when i was little i thought i was a dog.


there are many more things i could put, yet i dont want to. if you hate me for who i am, then fine. hate me for me. it's better than being hated for no darn reason. at least, at least. i would have given u a chance. i would. i would give u a chance. i hate the darn preps. ok...? i still give some a chance. i'm not a bad person. it takes someone big to realize that. you can bite back. yet it takes someone big not to give into temptation. i usually just ignore this and rip the flippin' idiot to shreds when they get on my nerves. does this mean i'm dangerous, well, sure. but it also doesn't. people need to learn when enough is enough. and i'll happily tell them when.


so, before you hate me, do some research.