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I've actually had a semblance of a life recently, complete with spur-of-the-moment plans. Of course, that couldn't have happened a few weeks ago so life would've been more convenient -.- However, I'm not going to complain about it 'cause it's kinda fun ^_^ I went "to the movies" last Wednesday, to the movies Thursday, to the movies Friday (all those frickin' movies!), to the movies MONDAY, and to the place formerly known as a mall today, with Thomas, who randomly asks if I wanna go hang out for a while...which ended up being 3 hours. 'Twas fun ^_^ I got Ari her birthday present (finally!) and Thomas his birthday present (late ^^;; wink . And I found something that I'm debating who will like it more. I kinda want to keep it for myself ^^;;; But I got myself something, so it's not like I skipped getting something I wanted to buy a present that I happen to like a lot. But I have 6 months to decide ^_^
Spur-of-the-moment plans do have their drawbacks. For example, I find out today that ppl are planning to go to the Insectarium tomorrow. my problems are my car and the fact that it's downtown. I avoid the city like the plague. So no buggies for me. I shall just work in my room for a while. Maybe. ha, who am i kidding?
I'm listening to "My Immortal", and suddenly I want to draw. That can't be good...hehe, that's totally Kiri's song xD
She sits in the car listening to her song as she watches Aya drive off after the prom with her boyfriend. After they disappear from view, Kiri stares numbly at the steering wheel but does not see it. She can feel her heart breaking with each note. At some point, it becomes too much for her, and she dissolves into tears. She made the wrong decision, and nothing could change that. All she can do is pick up the pieces and move on.
But something essential in Kiri had been...damaged. Her joy had evaporated. As she drives home, her face bears no emotion. Her mind is blank of everything but driving. She feels not the pain of rejection nor the sorrow she had felt watching Aya and her boyfriend drive away. Her heart is clamoring to be heard, but her mind suppresses it fiercely. No longer would she listen to her foolish heart. Only her mind can properly lead her.
She walks silently through her house to her room. Without turning on the light, she pulls her dress off and throws her pajamas on. The sparkling dress lies in the middle of her room, cold and grey in the dim light from her alarm clock. Kiri lies on the bed, staring at the ceiling. In her mind, she relives the night without feeling the emotions. She was a fool, she decides. Her pathetic joy and foolish hope had blinded her to reality. It does not matter how much she loves Aya. She would never have a chance. One last tear slides down Kiri's cheek as she whispers, "Goodbye."
Not sure where that came from ^^;;; I almost feel sorry for Kiri. But then I remember what she does just before this (which I haven't written yet ^^:; wink , and all pity vanishes ^_^ She plays it all wrong. Even I...well, I can't say what I was going to say because I'd be lying ^^;;;
crap, that's what the running out of time thing was. *kicks self* I now hate myself very very much ^_^ Not that it would've made a difference. Bleh -.- not cool. But it doesn't really matter much ^_^ I don't affect people much unless I do something blatantly stupid, which I didn't. My timing wouldn't've affect the outcome whatsoever ^^
~nepie
hahaha, Megan just made my day xD Although, Victoria and I don't look that much alike....do we? Thomas's sister calls us twins xD We def'nitly don't sound the same on the phone, though. I've had people tell me I sound like one of my half-sisters, and Victoria sounds surprisingly like someone else :3 Scared the hell out of me the first time she called me. Still does, sometimes. When we went to see Get Smart, she was late and called me on her mom's work phone. I don't have that number, but it's 985 so I figured it was her. Still nearly forgot who I was talking to, despite the area code and obviousness @_@
oh, yea, i forgot the most awesomely stupid part of the day ^_^ Thomas apparently likes DDR better than Pump -.- I prefer Pump music, but I'm better at DDR. Anyway. We did a round of Pump. I'm seriously not used to playing with someone, and it really screws me up. I tried Beethoven Virus on hard, pretty much out of boredom and having memorized the whole thing. We ended up failing out @_@ But! I know what I did wrong, and now I can fix it ^_^ Question is, how do I get myself somewhere to try again? I'm going places...oh, dumbass. X-Files. *dances* Thomas is the only person who would even attempt to play, and he likes DDR better anyway. So I get to look like a show-off and then a total spaz xD
gah, "My Immortal" again -.- I want to draw soooo bad right now, but I don't know what to draw @_@ I had a dream where I was sitting on the edge of a pool, kicking my feet in the water a little, that song was playing over a speaker system, and I was singing along with it. I closed my eyes during part of it, and when I opened them.....nothing had changed! ^_^ Still just me. Just a peaceful, boring dream. Better than a nightmare, I suppose.
 nepie · Thu Jul 24, 2008 @ 02:52am · 0 Comments |
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