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After the cut is where the rest of the questions and answers are, continued from the post before this.
I did it like this so someone wandering into here would not be hit with a wall of words and give me the evil-eye over it.
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Mindful Insanity Have you heard that you know when a guy really loves a girl when he will not look at her as a sex object but as an actual person? That instead of just thinking about getting laid and thinking of her chest and all the things he wants to do he actually respects her, feels so much about her that he actually will NOT want to screw her? That there can be that kind of mutual respect and that kind of affection?
Yeah, I have heard of that.
Languishing In The Stars After being a writer, what is it Flare wants out of the world?
A magic bullet to get rid of all the people in my head that are the wrong ones.
Nice And Proper How has the Gaia changed you?
...To keep the answer short and simple, by giving me the means to destroy the person I was before I found the Gaia.
Brain Ninja Will you do one of these kind of survey-quiz things for your journal? I put this in my LJ and thought of you, since you seem to never be able to just answer things simply. *Big, cheesy grin*
You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.
No.
Explanations.
Yourself:
Your boyfriend:
Your hair:
Love:
Your mother:
Your father:
Your favorite item:
Your dream last night:
Your favorite drink:
Your dream car:
Distance:
Too much:
Too little:
The room you are in:
Your mind:
Your nightmare:
Your fear:
What you want to be in 10 years:
Who you hung out with last night:
What you're not:
Limits:
Muffins:
One of your wish list items:
Time:
The last thing you did:
What you are wearing:
Your favorite weather:
Your favorite book:
The last thing you ate:
Evil:
Your life:
Music:
Your mood:
Your best friend:
Thinking about right now:
Your car:
Doing at the moment:
Your summer:
Your relationship status:
What is on your TV:
Your song:
Weather:
Hilarious:
Your dream:
Current song playing:
Red:
Purple:
Green:
White:
Black:
Gray:
Orange:
Blue:
Silver:
Style:
Personality:
Flare (as a character):
Flare (as the actual person behind the character):
Yourself: Mad.
Your boyfriend: Kitty.
Your hair: Different.
Love: Acceptance.
Your mother: Capricorn.
Your father: Poetry.
Your favorite item: (On Gaia) Horns. (Real Life) Mind.
Your dream last night: Bloody.
Your favorite drink: Caffeine.
Your dream car: Eleanore.
Distance: Spatial.
Too much: Failure.
Too little: Time.
The room you are in: Swords.
Your mind: Chaotic.
Your nightmare: Blue.
Your fear: Homeless.
What you want to be in 10 years: Accomplished.
Who you hung out with last night: Candle.
What you're not: Boring.
Limits: None.
Muffins: Num.
One of your wish list items: Bands.
Time: Tempting.
The last thing you did: This.
What you are wearing: Black.
Your favorite weather: Summer.
Your favorite book: Wonderful.
The last thing you ate: Captain.
Evil: Yes.
Your life: Wow.
Music: Life.
Your mood: Insane.
Your best friend: Eternal.
Thinking about right now: Death.
Your car: Invisible.
Doing at the moment: Pearling.
Your summer: Fantastic.
Your relationship status: Happy.
What is on your TV: Candle.
Your song: Mood.
Weather: Bright.
Hilarious: Scooter.
Your dream: Peace.
Current song playing: Mindless.
Red: Tall.
Purple: Madness.
Green: Create.
White: Innocence.
Black: Distance.
Gray: Wistful.
Orange: Chance.
Blue: Screen.
Silver: Bishie.
Style: Unpredictable.
Personality: Changing.
Flare (as a character): Incomplete.
Flare (as the actual person behind the character): Trying.
Tattoo What is your current problem?
Not being able to live long enough to accomplish everything I want to accomplish. As it is, I am living just long enough to mess things up.
Batman's My b***h I know you like Marvel over DC, so here's a good question for you...What Marvel character do you most see yourself in and why? And if you could have any Marvel character's power, what would you want and why?
I see myself emotionally in Emma Frost- the lovely White Queen. As to the why- here and here can give one a good idea why I identify with Emma as I do. Especially that first one- that has so many layers of meaning for me that I could spend an entire entry on it alone. I got used to being the rock for everyone a long, long time ago and now I prefer it, can't see being any other way. I might not have a diamond form on the outside, but by now what's inside has hardened. I used to think of myself as Rogue; Rogue is sweet and still wants to reach out, just knows she will hurt whoever she loves with just a touch so she has learned to stop needing and just do what she can as events happen. Her aim is to just not hurt anyone.
But now...now...Hail to the Queen.
I do not want to hurt anyone; I do not believe at this point in her story that Emma does, either, but she has hardened and has learned to take a hit. Many people see Emma as bad but I do not. She just does not show her emotions as easily as other people. She has learned to take care of herself. There's nothing bad in being able to take care of one's own needs. I can better take care of someone else's if I am not so concerned with my own.
If I could have any Marvel character's power, I would want Ghost Rider's ability to Penant Stare people. And I don't think I have to say why. It's the Penant Stare. That answers itself for 'why', my friend.
Music Junkie If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be? Here are the scenes to work with...now add the songs; for fun just put your songs to random and see what God tells you the songs should be!
Opening Credits:
Being Born:
Childhood:
Waking Up:
First Day At School:
Falling In Love:
Fight Song:
Breaking Up:
Obligatory Danger Scene:
Sex Scene:
Life's Ok:
Mental Breakdown:
Driving:
Flashback:
Getting Back Together:
Birth of Child:
Wedding:
Final Battle:
Death Scene:
Funeral:
End Credits:
For fun I just let the Media Player pick the songs...and leave it to you to call what your music comes out of God. xD
Opening Credits: Seether- "Hang On"
Being Born: Evanescence- "Snow White Queen"
Childhood: Spineshank- "New Disease"
Waking Up: Papa Roach- "Getting Away With Murder"
First Day At School: Mindless Self Indulgence- "Stupid MF"
Falling In Love: Zebrahead- "Falling Apart"
Fight Song: Breaking Benjamin- "Breath"
Breaking Up: Breaking Benjamin- "Had Enough"
Obligatory Danger Scene: Rammstein- "Mein Herz Brennt"
Sex Scene: Garbage- "Why Do You Love Me?"
Life's Ok: Disturbed- "Down With The Sickness"
Mental Breakdown: KoRn- "b***h, We Got A Problem"
Driving: Muse- "Time Is Running Out"
Flashback: Chevelle- "Don't Fake This"
Getting Back Together: HIM- "Join Me In Death"
Birth of Child: Killing Joke- "Invocation"
Wedding: Garbage- "It's All Over But The Crying"
Final Battle: KoRn- "Coming Undone"
Death Scene: Disturbed- "The Game"
Funeral: KoRn- "Eaten Up Inside"
End Credits: Within Temptation- "What Have You Done?"
The funny thing is how close a couple of these actually are. xD I thought about trying to link you guys to YouTube for the songs so that if you wanted to hear them you could...but then I thought that if anyone cares that much they could do it without me going link-happy on them. xD
I think that this list shows two things: one, the kind of stuff I listen to, and two, that my sense of humor is decidedly warped because I actually find this funny...And odd, how close some of it is. xD
Brought To You By The Number Five Will you answer this? It will make magic in your life!
5 THINGS YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW
5 NEGATIVE FACTS ABOUT YOU
5 POSITIVE FACTS ABOUT YOU
5 THINGS YOU CAN DO
5 THINGS YOU CAN NOT DO
I do not know if you meant to or not, but there were five parts of that list. xD
OK...I can and will do this.
Five Things I Am Doing Right Now:
* Living.
* Inching towards death.
* Listening to VAST.
* Loving on Candle.
* Thinking about what other things I need to get done.
Five Negative Facts About Me:
* I do not see the same negatives in myself as others do.
* I am not easy to win over and impossible to win back.
* I am only NOT a hermit because I need to work for my money.
* I let people down.
* I find the urge to destroy the world growing stronger every day.
Five Positive Facts About Me:
* It was hard as hell to nail down five positives about me.
* When I love what I am doing, I give it my all and then some.
* Once I care for someone I really do care.
* I can take care of myself. The people that are around me never have to worry that I am using them for anything- I am the most emotional and otherwise independent person I know.
* I will do whatever I can to make others happy; I try to always put others first, no matter the personal cost.
Five Things I Can Do:
* I think I can write. Maybe not well, and certainly not to the taste of just about everyone I know, but I am pleased with my efforts at times.
* I can put together a mean To-Do List.
* I can handle a challenge.
* I can find a bright side to any cloud- it's a rather masochist take I have on life, to keep surviving no matter what.
* Max myself out and then keep going.
Five Things I Can Not Do:
* Stop thinking of certain things.
* Understand why humanity is trying to eat itself alive.
* Sit by and watch it eat itself without yelling and foaming at the mouth.
* NOT get excited when the perfect song comes on at the perfect time.
* Stop wanting to be an author.
I can has magic now? heart
Fuzzy Logic What are the last few things you looked up on YouTube and why?
I looked this up because I was trying to find a bitching video to this series that fit the mood I was in at the time; I actually found this song through this video and then had to have it. This is my favorite song by this band and probably the best video to this couple I have yet to see. I look up La Femme Nikita music videos when I am in a particular mood. Anyone that has read in here before might remember how much I love this show. I am always looking for the right Nikita video because looking back this character formed a mighty strong base for the kind of women I always wanted to be growing up- plus, I think that if Hellsing was ever made into a real life movie, Integra Hellsing could be played by no one better. I found this one by sheer happy happenstance and have been pleased over and over with it. It is perfect; both for the mood I was in at the time and showing the relationship these two have. I swear I was not consciously thinking of Nikita when I first starting creating Flare...but the similarities- right down to the relationship with a real hardass- are undeniable. The fact Nikita wore a lot of all-white outfits at the beginning of the series and was royally ******** in a "white" room only added more layers to the feelings of unreality this series now gives me.
These two are by far my most favorite non-animated/non-CGI'ed couples.
This and this I looked up trying to find a decent Raiden video. Neither are in the best quality and I am not too fond of the timing of the second but these were the best I could find. The reason I was looking for decent videos of him is pretty obvious if you know what I look for in my bishies. Take one look at him. @.@
Someone sent me this Hellsing AMV because she knows me too damned well.
I found this and this because I was looking to find something that neatly expressed a disordered and large emotion that defies being expressed neatly. I do this often. I go searching for things according to the mood I am in and this mood in particular made for good video hunting.
And this was found for the same reason that I went looking up the last two videos that I previously linked. Now for anyone that does not know this, I despise Star Wars but developed a rather...intense mental connection with Anakin and Padme, mostly for reasons I could not even begin to explain in a short and simple matter. I had hoped the very last video would be more of a Padme-to-Anakin video but the video seems to be more of the other way around. Why did I go looking for that? Because the message I was trying to find a way to express is perfectly expressed in that song...and then to find one with this couple was just too good.
Nero Diamond Ask a question? As simple as all that is it? I would say....tell me one thing I do not know about little Flare. Something I might find fascinating.
I bet you thought I had forgotten you, didn't you? xD heart No, I had not forgotten you, just tried to answer things in the rough order that I got them. Thank you for asking something! I was not at all expecting as many people to ask things as they did; I never imagined that you might be one of those people!
xd heart Let me see...One little thing you do not know about little Flare. This is too fun. xD Well, ok- I am not sure if you will find this interesting or not but you were the first person I ever had a PM RP with. I do not know if you remember the thread we met in, but when the RP died and we continued it as we did that was the very first time I had ever RPed like that and boy, howdy, did I love it. @.@ Now 98% of my RPing is done that way and it is my favorite way to RP, and all because of our original RP. I only RP in two other places- two guilds- but at the moment Red is being overhauled from the memberlist on up and the other RP has died down some due to real-life fun-kill sticks being brought out and smacking on the players. But you were the very first person I ever had an RP with over PM and that got the ball rolling on all my other RPs. To think back on all of that is so wild to me now. @.@ I can't believe how much time has passed...but I am so glad you came back to Gaia. ^.^
I hope that was a good answer; if not I will try to think of something more interesting...but to me, that was a neat coincidence that you would ask. ^.^ I am glad I wondered into that thread all those years back. xD
Aces Are Wild Would you rather have a dishonest friend or an honest enemy?
Oh, easy.
An honest enemy.
I think I already answered that with the answer for why I love villains so much.
Inconstant Vigilance Why don't you talk to you-know-who anymore?
I have no reason to.
Bemused But Worried Why do you never answer me when I ask you how your day is going? Or how you are? Why don't you talk about personal stuff? Did I do something wrong?
I answer, it is just not in the way it seems like people are used to being responded to when it comes to those kind of questions.
Let me try to answer what you asked me in the order you asked it- I answer in the only way I know how to answer, which is to pull the conversation back to its original purpose, which is not to talk about myself or my day but rather give the other person a chance to talk and tell me how they are doing, what is going on with them. I don't talk to others just to talk about myself.
I don't talk about personal stuff. This entry is about as personal as I have ever gotten on Gaia or as personal as I have gotten in years out of Gaia. I am just more of a giver when it comes to stuff like this- I listen. Anything I have to say has been said so much that even I have gotten that it's been ran into the ground; if people did not get it then what is the point of keeping on with it? I just do what people need- I listen.
No, you did not do anything wrong. No one did. I just finally shut up and started listening to people. There's more people that need to be listened to in this world then want to do the listening. It is something I am good at...so it is what I do.
I hope that helps explain what you asked about. I just want to be the kind of person people know they can come and talk to, instead of knowing I am just waiting for a chance to put my next two cents in.
Funny You Should Ask What was your last dream about?
The last one I remember dealt with a pool of water that was not really water, and a familiar personage who I won't mention too much about, because he does not really matter.
Putting it simply, the dream does not bear repeating at this point in the on-going adventures of Flare & Co. What little details I can put together are not very Gaia-friendly, and not for the reason that some might think.
Not trying to cheese out of answering, I just can't really get into what little I can remember without getting too much into details that no one would want to read anyway. xD
A Man Of Wealth And Taste What was the most interesting thing you... last watched? last did? last heard? last ate? last read? last thought? last bought? lied about?
The most interesting thing I last watched was this and no pun intended, but I am not joking when I say that this made Flare's heart happy.
The most interesting thing I last did was this journal entry.
The most interesting thing I last heard was this song; thanks to this video I spent months trying to get this song and FINALLY found it! @.@ I adore this video, though I know some will not like it. I think the timing is great and I do like the main character the video is aimed at- simply and plainly put I thought it was a good video.
The most interesting thing I last ate was a swig of Redbull and a mouthful of Rainbow Nerds. Why? Because I could. And because I wanted a sugar-high that would kill a zebra.
The most interesting thing I last read was a short horror story called The Man Who Got Off The Ghost Train by Kim Newman. It was so good. I am going to try to get my greedy paws on all her other Diogenes Club work now. Before that it was a book called Emotional Vampires. Go figure.
The most interesting thing I last thought was about the new plot in my head that is bursting to be born; it is a nice weave so far of some of the random things that here and there get caught in my idea-net...and slowly but surely, at random points of the last few days...*CLICK!* Just like when you are playing jigsaw on here- throughout the day bits and pieces and parts of ideas just *CLICK!* and *CLICK!* and come together at the most unexpected times. I started out with all these random bits and now I have a full, fleshed-out story that is 89% done. It almost knocks me breathless when certain parts click because stuff I thought of back when I was in high school has clicked with stuff that I just thought of these past few weeks; some of the stuff that is now clicking together was so old I thought I would never fit it into or with anything else. I don't know if it is obvious or not- but I am very happy when in the grasp of a good story.
The most interesting thing I last bought was the notebook that I am now keeping certain plot ideas in; there's something about blank pages that make me very happy. A book or a notebook are new doors- always an entirely different world to step into. I will never see why people do not like to read.
The most interesting thing I last lied about was that I had slept easy.
Cranky Ice Cream Will you confess your biggest fear?
Yes. I will. My biggest fear is that all the things I believe in, all the things that keep me going and sane, will turn out to not be true in the end. That idea eats away at everything I do, every day.
Happy And Oblivious Will you walk us through a normal day for Flare?
I will and I will try to make it simple.
I am going to make the leap and assume you were meaning me and not the character Flare because even my days look boring compared to hers. xD
And I don't think I could walk you through a day of her's at any rate since there are fault lines more stable then her life is.
A normal day, a normal day...
I wake up late for everything already, having already fallen behind on things because I took a nap. I will have missed people on here and in other parts of my life trying to either call or message me, and more replies will need to be made to things by the time I get back home from work then I had time to reply to the day before. Due to my phenomenally shitastic time-managment skills, anything I do to catch up on matters both Gaian and not-Gaian only serves to put me further and further behind.
The only thing I match in terms of scale when it comes to my being behind on things is letting people down. To do something nice for one person means being the bad guy to someone else; everything I say or do is something that makes someone feel bad, and what I do not say or do guarantees the same response. I spend the day trying to catch up on what I am years behind on and trying to make people happy and instead making people feel bad. I take it all in stride, and let my insanity out to play: if the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and over expecting a different response each time...well, let's just say I am getting crazier by the day.
I push myself to stay awake as long as possible to try to get some stuff done and manage to not do anything more then what was needed to make things worse off and then I wake up where I fell asleep to do it all over again the next day.
There are a couple of times a day I might eat, and there will be my two major food-groups involved when I do- sugar and caffeine- and there will be a shower to try to wake the zombie-Flare up in the morning. One of the funniest mornings I had was when I woke up enough to realize I was trying to drink a Mountain Dew in the shower while trying to wash my hair. That entire day was pretty much summed up by that line.
As much as I possibly can I have Candle either on my lap or we crash on the couch for a bit and life is good.
Despite what some will say no matter what is going on, life is good. For me, life is wonderful. I am pretty much in league with Michelangelo when he said, "I hope that I may always desire more than I can accomplish."
Five Star Rating Why are you not online more?
For the same reason I am not on AIM more. See the first post for that answer if you have not already read over it.
Hatin' On The Haters Don't Make Me A Hater FUNNY!What is your damage over RxI? You know they will end up having him and that Orihime chick together and there are two massive good reasons why staring at you when you watch the show.
So just accept it now. Small boobs FAIL!
...NOT funny.
That is MEAN. gonk I can not help but think you are trying to tell me something with you finding something like that with ALUCARD! MEAN! >.<
...In your Inbox?
Not to sound like a smartie, but I just sent it like three hours before you PMed me that...so if you did not get it, I guess I will have to re-send because you should have gotten it already.
I maded you a PM.
But Gaia ated it.
More And More Grapes, Damnit! WHY do you like Korn so much?
Because it is KoRn. It. Is. KoRn. >.<
Another answer would be because there are only a handful of bands that seem able to express the inexpressible for me...and so neatly and perfectly on top of that. There's something reassuring about hearing someone else outside of your head express emotions that you simply can not.
KoRn makes me not want to destroy the world.
It might sound weird to someone who does not feel this way, but I feel that music is the blood of the soul...and when the beat is a certain way, when the blood is really flowing...
It makes one feel alive.
Technicolor Nightmares Are these colors the best colors that you can shine?
No.
And I live every day knowing that.
Quote: Have you ever Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?
Not in the prophetic sense, thank GOD.
But there have been some seriously, drop-dead eerie similarities here lately. Enough so that I have wondered if I am going crazy one minute and then the next I actually feel good that there is such a remarkable pattern.
There have been enough things here lately connected with dreams to make me feel really odd about the world in general but again, I think that is probably the crazy.
Beatin' Off My Demons Have you ever met your idol?
Yes. I am blessed enough to have done just that.
Quote: Will you dare to tell two truths and a lie (in that order)?
I dare.
Two truths and a lie...
OK.
I believe due to reasons I can not easily and readily explain that if certain posts are not made in a certain RP that certain things will never happen.
I fear those posts will never be made.
I will force them to be made if I have to.
Grimmest Of The Grimm What do you want on your tombstone?
The Flare Salute. 3nodding
nlm >.< mln
And if you mean the pizza (because I am old enough to remember those commercials) then I wants me some cheese and pepperoni, bebe.
But seriously...
I want The Flare Salute AS my tombstone.
Just a stone middle finger with my name.
Yes.
Purity And Rot What do you want to do before you die?
Depends on how I die; give me more details and I will give you more of my own.
Other then that, be a published author- accomplish the dream of doing what I want for a living. Being able to immerse myself in such waters would be the best thing in the world for me and my greedy heart.
Lovely Creed Why are you so into death and very-ungirly things?
Cause when I was born I knew we would one day meet so I spent my entire life becoming the very kind of personality that would shatter your cherished ideals of what a girl should be and should like.
...Other then that I would just say that while some girls are made of sugar and spice, I am made of darkness and star-dust and leave it at that.
Voodoo Me Who ******** you up like this?
Insanity is like beauty and a host of other things- it is all in the eye of the beholder.
From where I am sitting, I am awfully crazy but keeping it maintained a lot better then people who swear it's not their fault, so really...Who's the more mad here?
Quote: Will you tell a secret in here that you have never told anyone before?
Yes.
But only because you asked and only because here lately it has really started to sink in on entirely new levels that I never considered before.
I can not even begin to explain this in a neat and tidy way that will make sense because even though I have noticed this for years now, I am just now beginning to really wrap my head around it, and in so doing that all it is doing is messing with me more.
As some of you know, Flare came from an RP done years before Gaia; without getting into the details, I noticed way back when that the RP mirrored "real life" at an uncanny and sometimes flat-out eerie rate. It was almost poetic and for me, a little creepy, how things would happen in the story with the characters...and then later be played outside of the game.
There would be times when this would just root me to my chair for hours on end, my brain just knocked over by how close it all seemed.
That story was carried over into Gaia- largely the original RP has been "continued" in a nearly perfect continuation and extension of the original story in the first guild I joined on here. It has branched out and grew, to where I have three main "eras" for Flare in my head.
And months into that guild RP, I noticed it was happening again.
Things happen in the story and much later on, there's a mirror-effect in real life.
Now I really do see how some of it was done in the RP first because of certain things going on with certain RPers that bled into the RP itself- there are a handful of those events that I knew before they were even posted would follow this trend and so therefore, I have never counted them.
It was kinda like how, at the table, when Vapor and Knight started fussing and bitching at each other in the story, it was no shock to me that ten minutes later, outside of the story, they were doing the same thing.
Or how Dragon would be off in his own little world and not caring what was going on with everyone else...and then Dragon, the RPer, was at a loss as to what was going on with everyone else.
...But lately, certain things have added up to make me believe that certain events are just not going to happen until they are written out in the RP. Crazy, I know. The path someone is on can not be altered as easy as just making a story and steering your character the way you want your own life to go. I know that.
But I also know that that is exactly the way I feel- that certain things are just not going to happen until the story has been continued. In a way I started to think of the story as a crystal ball, years and years back...and now I just want another peek.
You wanted a secret; there's my biggest one. It is crazy, but then again, so am I.
Nestle Candies What is your thing with the Four Horsemen?
Before the story that Flare came from it was a lingering obsession from childhood about the end of the world. I know by now you have noticed a trend with my plot ideas and the stories I am attracted to- I have a slight love-affair with the idea that the world will one day come to an end. When I was a Pint-Size-Flare the idea of the Four really got my attention...paving the way for the story that would come later and my subsequent "thing" that I now have for The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.
(Fun note for anyone that cares: Even when doing an RP that does not necessarily have the Four as their Horsemen personas I will find a way to work them in, my favorite so far being that they are a legendary group of assassins that do their jobs so well that they get the nickname Four Horsemen, since hiring them brings death to anyone who get in their way. Lately I have been in particular toying with this idea, fleshing out ways to have them "in" the stories I am doing without them being "in" the stories...If that makes sense. Another fun fact: If Flare is not the main character that I am RPing then either she and the three will appear in some small way, even if only in extreme passing that only I or maybe one of the others would get or none of them will be mentioned, even in passing- I keep them together no matter what.)
Doctor Terrific I noticed a few themes in the RP plots you tend to go for. Why?
If I had a penny for every time I read that...
I will just say there is more truth in my fiction then there is fiction.
Only when I breathe.
Happy Fists Do No Harm What do you like most about Gaia?
The people. :3
Because without the people, the very reason I came to and stayed on Gaia would not exist- RPing.
The thing I like most about Gaia is the fact I get to write on here.
Don't know if I ever told you this before...
But I kinda like to write. ninja
Hail To The Pawn What's the scariest thing you've done?
Lived this long.
Mammoth Pill Are you listening to music right now (stupid question, I know)? If so, what is the very song playing at this very moment?
Not stupid. Cute. heart
The very song playing at this very moment is a mash-up song of two of my favorite songs- Korn vs. Crazy Town - Falling Butterfly.
Yes, it is as cool as it sounds.
Curious Yeorge If your life was made into a movie, who would you want to play you and what would your theme song be?
I would want Gillian Anderson to play me; just because she was the biggest deal to me when I was younger. I wanted to be Scully so bad that when I was nearing eighteen I went and had my hair cut to look just like hers.
That might not sound like a big deal but my hair was so long I could sit on it and the hair dresser spent over an hour trying to talk me out of it. I still have a long pony-tail of it in an envelope packed away. I went from being able to sit on my hair even when I was leaning forward to having a shoulder-length bob.
So yeah- Gillian Anderson would play me because I think she's great and I think my theme song would have to be...
(I had to really think about this one, guys- I was determined to pick just one and have it be the perfect one.)
Guns & Roses- Don't Damn Me. Because there was once upon a time when all I wanted to do was talk and because I have learned it is just better to keep it to myself. The page is the only place where I can really be heard.
American Idle If you could meet God, what would be the first thing you would do? What would you want to ask him about first?
If you could talk to your psyche, what would you say?
I would give God a big hug and tell him that I think he did a good job, even if most of his kids just wanted to b***h and complain. I would tell him you can't make everyone happy- because people will be people. Other then that I think the first thing I would want to ask him about is if I could see someone as quickly as possible, and to please forgive my impatience because he made me that way, after all.
As for my psyche, I would just ask it how it was doing.
Purple Daze What would the sexiest guy for you look like?
...
Too easy.
Wanted To Be Called Flare's Biggest Fan *CoughStalkerCough* I bet you two things: one, no one else will ask these many questions about you and two, you won't answer all of them. Because I know you pride yourself on being a stubborn-head. So go on, if you dare! twisted heart
Do you have any obsessions?
What's your favorite TV series quote (not anime, but an actual TELEVISION series...OTHER then "That's what she said". rofl )?
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to make someone else happy?
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
Who was the last person...
...that haunted you?
...you wanted to kill?
...that you laughed at?
...that laughed at you?
...that broke your heart?
...to disappoint you?
...to make you cry?
...that you thought about?
...you thought was completely insane?
...you told off?
...you trusted?
When was the last time you...
...smiled?
...laughed?
...cried?
...bought something?
...had a nightmare?
...were mean?
...did something you told yourself you wouldn't?
...worn the opposite sex's clothes?
...missed someone?
...had a serious conversation?
Have you ever seen someone die?
What would you do if you were going to die in a day?
What are you thinking about right now?
What would you do if an Alien landed in your backyard and asked for directions to the White House?
What would you do if your room was painted neon orange puke green and highlighter yellow?
...I think I am done.
Wow. xD
One, no one else did ask this many questions so bravo to you! xD And two, watch me answer all of them just because I AM a stubborn-head! xd (And you knew damn well to word it like that, too! <3)
Do you have any obsessions? Many, actually. Some if not all of them are all contained in this entry and the one before it, too. Technically it was all one big entry until I had to edit it to make two (and even after that I had to edit both down). @.@ Leave it to me to breaked Gaia. t.t
What's your favorite TV series quote (not anime, but an actual TELEVISION series...OTHER then "That's what she said". rofl )?
OK, you asked for it. This is my favorite television-that-is-not-anime quote. And try to figure what show it came from, smart a**!
Jim: Well, what does Roy think about everything?
Pam: I don't know. I try not to bother him about this kind of stuff.
Jim: You mean your thoughts and feelings?
Score. heart
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? It would have to be called Clockwork Madness.
This is not what you asked but I think my biography is going to be called Caught Between Jesus And An Apocalypse (Take Away Her Redbull). It's catchy.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to make someone else happy? You mean to imply that others do not? Surely you jest!
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Yeah, but not close friends. I would think the lady insane and would be afraid any moment she would bite me.
The last person...
...to haunt me was the person that I used to be.
...I wanted to kill was the person I am now.
...I laughed at was Asai.
...that laughed at me (that I know) was myself.
...that broke my heart was the person that made that damnably addictive AMV I can not stop watching. >.< For the love of cookies, get it away from me! gonk
...to disappoint me was the mailman.
...to make me cry was myself.
...that I thought about was Candle. She kinda jumped at me.
...I thought was completely insane was myself.
...I told off was myself.
...I trusted is gone now.
The last time I...
...smiled was while I did this.
...laughed was when I saw this:
I lose it every time I look at it. xD
...cried was the last time.
...bought something was when I bought some Gaia Cash on here.
...had a nightmare was last night.
...was mean was that I wrote this instead of doing other things.
...did something I told myself I wouldn't was wandering through the forums when I should be working on Red, PMs, or a million other things I have fallen behind on. >.<
...wore the opposite sex's clothes was right now. Green boxers with little Ace of Spades for ten points!
...missed someone was only the last breath that I took.
...had a serious conversation was...was...I am trying to think back. I know it was on the phone, and I can think of who it was with, but the exact date is not coming to me. I would have to look back in my writings to get the exact date.
Have you ever seen someone die? Yes.
What would you do if you were going to die in a day? Try my best to get a lot of calls out. There would be a lot of apologizing to do.
What are you thinking about right now? It would be easier to ask what I am NOT thinking about right now.
To keep it simple, some story ideas, random what-if's, errant plots, my Gaia To-Do, my To-Do for the apartment, what I need to do before I go into work in the morning...Things that happened yesterday, last week, a year ago, three years ago...AMVs I would like to do, see, suggest...A poem that is slowly coalescing in my head, all the things I need to do next week...
A lot of things. That is what I am thinking about.
What would you do if an Alien landed in your backyard and asked for directions to the White House? Tell him he's better off going to New York.
What would you do if your room was painted neon orange puke green and highlighter yellow? Ask why. Just...why?
French Death What are two not-so-obvious differences between you and Flare? What are two not-so-obvious similarities between you and Flare?
Oh, that is a good question. @.@
Two not-so-obvious differences between me and Flare would be that, for one, she has never had her wisdom teeth removed because she never had them grow in. Her headaches have nothing to do with what mine have to do with.
Two not-so-obvious similarities between me and Flare is that we both feel torn perfectly in two and will probably never feel whole or complete again. We also both know that there is no going back to the past; we blame ourselves for every thing that ever went wrong.
Don't know. Ask the cannibals after the main course is finished.
Really Pissed Off This is from that Choice Theory book you recommended I read. "...After you made love, did he ever say, 'My God, Francesca, you really love me; tell me what do you want. I don't know if I can give you what you want, but please tell me; maybe I can do something.'" How does that make you feel? In a perfect world this is how men would treat us. But they don't, and don't even tell me it's not their fault.
If you are asking me how reading that line you quoted makes me feel, I have to say it makes me feel sad that out of your reading that entire book that it would be that part that stuck with you the most.
Purple Horse What's worse: your boyfriend not getting you a card for your birthday or Valentine's Day?
To answer that in the best way that I can, I just don't care about things like that, Purple. There was once upon a time I was caught up in certain emotions that made me want to care about certain things like that but in the end my true personality finally broke through. A born loner quickly grows tired of certain things very easily; I read this book once that said with Aries the people around them should never, ever give them a reason to remember why being alone is best. That is very true; I even copied the biggest part of that book here because the truth of those words amazed me- I am very Aries, putting it lightly.
If I have to tell someone to get me something or do something for me, I do not want it. To put it into terms I know won't make any sense to you unless you might have seen a certain scene from a certain anime/manga, I do not want Maxwell Flowers. If someone does not want to do something of their own accord, then I do not want anything done like that for me out of obligation.
I like honesty. And anything given to me or done for me that I pestered them into doing is just not honest.
'Sides all of that, I have never been the kind of girl that provoked that kind of response when it comes to the males. I think it is because I scare most of them. And honestly? I prefer it that way. I do not scare easy and really would rather the other person did not, either.
I think I love it; I also think you got me dead-on! xD That was so sweet of you to make me one after I did yours! heart You are a sweetheart. I don't know if anyone would do it, but I appreciate you making me one. :3
*Huggles* Pepsi-chan ish a schweetie.
Red Red Rose Is love indeed like blood?
Yes. Yes, it is.
The Blue Baron Why do you want to be a writer? Why won't you just settle down, get knocked up and get fat and bitter like women are supposed to? GET IN THE DAMN KITCHEN AND MAKE ME A PIE, WOMAN!
Don't blame me for being all independent and being the classy kind of lady that can think for herself and does not need a man to shelter her from the big scary world. Pardon me for being the kind of person that came into the world knowing she was so fantastic that she would wait to find someone very special that could make her see a reason to settle.
I are not for kitchens and making pies, unless that is a euphemism for something else and let me just say there won't be any pies made for anyone OTHER then that special someone, and I will give you a hint: The man who thinks he can talk to me like that will be eating a boot rather then a pie.
...*Snaps her fingers*
You got told!
xd heart
((Again, I want to stress to anyone reading this that this is the way we talk to one another all the time. xD He seems to think I am not traditional enough and I seem to think he needs to join the new century. Old man! xD))
Ye Olde Gilded Wonder What has changed you the most?
Being born and surviving life to this point.
Cherry Chapstick When was the first time you realized you could very well die?
The first time I really got a taste of my own mortality was when I was around five-years-old. I nearly died in the hospital; my grandfather had a gravestone made and bought my plot, preparing for it to happen. I still have the grave plot, actually, though it is not where I want to be planted when it really is my time to go.
But that was when I realized I was mortal and my time here was not written in stone. Putting it lightly, it made me think. A lot.
And for anyone wanting to make a crack that this explains a lot about me, who knows? You could be right. I actually like the idea that maybe it did have an affect- early on I learned to appreciate my time here.
Trying For A Banana Sticker Which member of Dethklok would you be?
Nathan. xD He's kinda sweet and not all there. But he's so brutal. xd heart
Guess Who Can I have my Crayolas now?
No, ma'am, because we had a talk for over an hour about why you do not need to eat them...and what was the first thing you did when I gave them back to you?
That's right. You got so sick you turned the colors you ate. I love you; I do this for your own good.
Cake. heart
Because it is relevant to my interests.
Needles And Chains How many piercings you got?
To date...seven. 3nodding
Lesbie Friends And Go Homo Together Why don't you join the dark side? We have cookies.
As you do, but this side has Alucard, Dante, Grave, Amon, and Sephiroth, just to name a FEW of the reasons why I am happy to have the urges that I do. 3nodding heart
heart Thanks for asking, though. Whenever you ask something like that I take it as a huge compliment. ^.^ heart
You just did, darling.
And HOW. @.@ heart </div>
 RadiantFlare · Mon Aug 18, 2008 @ 02:38am · 0 Comments |
