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Today at school kyle told me something he said I don't live in reality I live in a fantasy world me and one of my best friends. I don't live in a fantasy world do I??? I guess I do...I guess I'm just scared of reality. I used to live in nothing but reality but that part of me dissapeared...I hated it I was so mean to everyone I had no friends. I sometimes wished my sorrows would end like the november rain! And today after my S.S class when we wre comeing back from lunch I hit jeremy in the back of the head. I felt bad at first then it melted...into comeplete hatered of him. If I live in reality I act like a really mean b***h...I don't want too!!! But kyle was right I have to stop living in a fantasy...at any cost! Even if I lose those that are dear to me..like my friends but I can aford this any longer. No more rping a made up charter no more acting completely helpless. From now on I'm going to be my old self a big mean a** b***h..... I hope you all who told me I live in a fantasy world are happy...cause this girl an't going back no way no how. I just hope max can forgive me affer all we just became friends today. I going to act like a totall jerk tomarow my life is headed down such a black hole...I won't be able to come out ever.