In five lines or less, here is a synopsis of the things going on in my life right now, broken down into subjects.
The May 2010 edition. heart
Work: Never has my job been anything like how it is right now; there is change in the air and changes already implemented that quite literally changed the entire world there for me. We are about a month away from it being only the manager and myself being the longest people there- an eternity in some ways, a few minutes in others. My three-year anniversary there is coming up and that alone is a mind-frak.
Health (Mental): Better. I am not sure what has happened in these past few weeks but I am managing to pull myself together and...it feels fantastic. I stopped spending so much time on things that pull me down and drain my energy and I can not believe how much better I have been feeling and doing.
I am an introvert in a cracked-out, extroverted world. It has done wonders for me to pull away from the loud madness of it all, even if it is just a few hours here and there.
Relationships (Non-boyfriend): *Pointy-pointy* ninja heart I can not wait until I can say more!
Health (Physical): Still lazy as all hell with a terrible love affair with caffeine that I can not seem to kick. Instead of dumping the habit completely I am now carefully and wonderfully managing it, plus starting to make some other adjustments that I really hope will work in helping me to start taking better care of myself.
I still love my cereal, though. I also feel better since I have been taking more time out for Flare. Amazing how less stress equals less headaches and pucking.
Relationships (Boyfriend): Marriage, living together, and bringing in the family members into one another's circle is now all on the table and being openly discussed.
I am also feeling much, much better about introducing him and showing him in public that I am not afraid to kiss him or touch him. This has always been hard for me to do since I am not a very...touchy-feely person.
It is scary and wonderful and thrilling.
I am allowing myself to fall.
Writing: I have been working hard to get more writing time in and these last two days have been spent doing nothing but working on getting crap done so that I can get some writing done- and none too soon, might I add. I love it too much to give up completely. I need it, just like I need food and air.
Hell, I will give up caffeine before I give this feeling up- not even a lovely caffeine whoosh can compare to the feeling of a page written well.
Personal Matters: Not killed anyone yet. Found my bucket and now I am carefully gathering my s**t to place into it. Feels good to be proactive and assertive instead of constantly telling people "Yes" when in my head I am emphatically screaming "No". I am and was so effing tired of being a welcome mat. No one has as many friends as a welcome mat; that is not saying a lot since I am a quality over quantity type.
Apartment: Still needs to be purged and cleaned up. Especially considering the changes I have in mind for my personal life. I do not want either the physical load or the emotional load taken with me when I finally move and start an actual life together with Strawberry.
Happiness Project: Just put mine into actual motion yesterday. It feels fantastic. Finally, I believe I am starting to feel my way once more. I got my groove back, so to speak, and heaven help the world now. rofl heart
If you do what you've always done,
you'll be what you've always been.
Here's to no longer doing what has always been done.
~Edited May 3, 2010 at 12:41 AM
 RadiantFlare · Sat May 01, 2010 @ 07:24pm · 0 Comments |
