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Is that what I am now? Am I no longer the angel my father once told me I was? Am I really a bully? A juvenile delinquent? Last time I checked, punching a girl when you are a guy almost 3 times bigger than I am, was wrong. Maybe the rules changed? Press charges? How was I supposed to know that I went to far. I call all my friends dumb. Is that bullying? I didn't know he had a learning disability. If he does, then shouldn't he be in a class away from people who are in an Advanced class? I don't know anymore. The school has shown favoritism. Since when did the "innocent until proven guilty" rule not apply to school issues? They didn't even question me on what happened. They automatically believed everything he said. Now I am in danger of going to a good school and getting a good job. What did I even do? In my eyes and all of the other students' eyes I am the victim here. But are we all wrong? Am I really a bad person? I have tried hard to be nice to everyone. What happened? What is going to happen? I'm not a criminal or a juvenile delinquent or whatever it is you would like to call it. Am I? I don't want to lose my future. This could ruin everything. Why should I not just give up on my life now?