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I love him. I love you. Where do I stand? My boyfriend, has half of my heart and you're tugging on the other half. I have done things. Things that I am not at all proud of. I feel so guilty. But, I fell in love. With two guys. At the same time. I let you hurt me. Jealous, I watch you and your girlfriend fall deeper and deeper in love. I shouldn't be jealous. I have my boyfriend. He is my everything. But you have a hold on me. Let go. Please, Let Me Go. I can't bear this. If you weren't here, I would be happy. My life would be perfect. I sound so mean. But with this guiltiness in my soul, I can't be happy. I want to forget about you. I want to forget about EVERYTHING we have done together. Please, just forget me. PLEASE. I beg of you. I want to be happy, alone, with my boyfriend. No other guys. No cheating. No nothing. Just perfection. Is that too much to ask?