I wonder if they notice anything...
Anything at all.
If they notice how I take their words.
If they notice how much pain I'm truly in.
If they notice how I don't really feel alive...
Do they even wonder what I truly think?
That my thoughts would probably be considered unhealthy, and dangerous?
Would they even believe my words?
Or would they just laugh it off like they always do?
They probably would just do that...
Laugh at my pain, think that it's ridiculous and call me stupid...
Just. Like. They. Always. Do.
I wonder if they notice that that is why I don't speak what is really on my mind and just say what they want to hear...