Time goes by quick but it goes in slow pace. When I look in the past, My first thought is, “Why did I do it?” True that I’m weak and have become a stupid foolish person. I accept that comment. It shows who I am, however, I’m also a person who keeps on trying to learn it by heart and move on. Sure people can correct my mistake and it can’t be helped, but I want to see it and learn it so I won’t repeat the mistake ever again. Few years ago, I was lost, fallen into the abyss, carrying pain, suffer, depress sadness, regret, selfish, etc. I cried for help but no one didn’t answer it. I reach out my hand for someone to pull me out of it but no one take it. Instead, I kept walking but ended up lost in many ways. Why there isn’t a light shining upon me? Why there isn’t a path that can guide me to a right path?
I caught myself following everyone’s lies without desiring the truth.
Why did I give up so easily when it is that simple?
I felt a shot through my heart. I knew it would happen, yet I didn’t stop myself. I just continue what good for everyone instead of mine. If I only see what’s coming to expected. If I have to prevent from taking too serious on someone or putting too much hope, I would have to fight against it or walk through it and continue walking. I have to find its light and I know its hiding somewhere… I know I can’t continue living depress state. That’s when I felt that I got really lonely and couldn’t bear any pain. In order to find its hidden light, I will choose one out of many dark and start walking to find its hidden light, If I accomplish that, then I would go to another one. Maybe one day I would find my lost happiness, my shatter dreams, and my everything. Maybe one day I would redeem love and care again.
Try again one more time….Wait as many times you want…You will realize even if it takes long enough to lose it at the end……Good luck
 I-MissKabbii01-I · Sun Jan 20, 2013 @ 03:01am · 0 Comments |
