I am so relieved. My friends have been forced out of my life, and I have room to breathe again. Michelle blocked me, I have blocked Brittany, Cat, and Regan to avoid the drama they created.
Michelle was "offended" because I wanted to talk about my life. And my feelings. But she didn't like that because she's going through a lot more than me and she's going through grief and sickness. It's irritating that she felt her feelings were more important than mine. Please don't act like I don't know what you're going through. I would have told her what I went through, but she'd probably think I was just making it about myself.
I'm not selfish. At least, from what I can tell, I'm selfish when it comes to love and sex. That's true for sure. But to be honest, I'm getting sick of people stepping on me and making me feel unimportant.
I'm so done with this. I don't want to be a b***h, but if it keeps people from taking advantage of my kindness, I may have no choice. I am and have always been a doormat. It's time I take this experience and use it in my life with positivity.
Thanks you guys. You gave me false hope, false trust in you all, and now I can't even handle thinking about you without getting very angry. I will try so hard to keep myself calm around you all, but I may have a panic attack with no one to help me through them.
******** you Michelle. I am just as important as you. ******** you Brittany, for telling Michelle about the fact that I was scared. ******** you Cat. You never talked to me again. ******** you Regan. I never did a thing to give you "stress". And lastly, ******** you Claire. I loved you, and it was obvious that I should have ignored my feelings for you. I should have ignored you and not kissed you that day. I should have just ignored my feelings instead of attaching myself to you.
******** YOU.
 Canis Baileyi Lupus · Wed May 06, 2015 @ 08:58pm · 0 Comments |
