Okay's I wanna talk about being in love razz or well. fancying someone! 3nodding
I remember when I was fancying Matt. Best feeling ever! And I really cared a lot about him! So he'll always be very special to me.
But now that I fancy Rick. I won't say that I'm in love with him. Just that I like him quite a lot razz But it's kinda a better feeling I have with him!. Because I can see him every day! I couldn't see Matt, talk with him (hear his voice) and I couldn't even touch him, only write. But I can do all those things with Rick!
It's been going up and down with Joy. or not really down (I thought for a while because this really fuucked up thing happened! which I at first thought he had misunderstood. But I dunno about that, it's forgotten!? I hope) but it's just been going really still. No big talks that has went on and on. But instead lately in skool he's been giving me these looks. He's always been really shy, but now if we sit and talk and we get eyes contact he holds it. I held it too in the beginning! But now, if I look at him and he looks me in the eyes I fuucking can't hold the eye contact, I try. But I can only do it for a couple of seconds! God! whee
He's soo sweet! Love his eyes! Haha though I'm actually not sure just what colour they are, cos when I wanna check he looks down or into my eyes razz Think they're a really light/bright blue, almost grey maybe!? hehehehehehehe
As I said he is shy, but he is looking at me from where he sits! and if I look up he doesn't look down but looks me into my eyes! GAWD!! hehehe heart whee
But with the summer hols coming up (which I am looking forward to) I'll prolly not get to see him, at all maybe? And that kinda makes me sad! But we can talk on MSN, or by txt's, or maybe if we finally talked about -that day-* then we could see each other! I really hope we'll soon find a day! Cos I'll miss him! blaugh
I won't see him from next week on already!! xp gonk oh well... I'll just have to get the guts and mention -that day- and see what he says.
God I can't forget the way he looks at me!! It's soo freakin hot!! heart
Anyways! I gotta run.. Rick = heart
* -that day- means Black Books day.
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