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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
Wildfire Truth
I don't know if I could ever tell you too much.

To me, the knowledge that Sakura will die has so many depths to it. To an outsider, it sounds only two layered: happy that you'll be free of an alter and sad from the attachment that had grown between the two of you. But, it's so much more complicated than that. The new alter that should theoretically be stepping in will be Honey Wildfire, whom was the sister of Sakura but she chose to fight for the evil side right from the start. Therefore, her base alignment is evil rather than good. Furthermore, the personality of Honey is vastly different from the silly innocence of Sakura. I don't know how far it will take within me, but I know that if she is to be joined with Chisai, I won't be the same person.

A part of me says that Sakura won't be dying, because that hurts too much to think of and I really desperately want her to come back one day. I want the option to see her again! I love her. I truly, deeply, love her. But, the only way she can join Axel is to die. That's the only way. He's dead and she would have to die as well. BUT I.... I just... is she really going to be gone forever? How will I know they live happily ever after?! I want to see her living the life that would have been mine. I want to see it to know that it was a happy one. I want to know. I need to know that their love, his love, was real. I need to know.

I'm dying my hair. It will be red. I've never done anything like that before. That's what brought up the above rant about Honey Wildfire, since her hair is orange and I am doing all this right before the graduation so Sakura's imminent death.