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I got it from one of my friends. It's sad (and full of bad grammer, might I add)
What can I say, what can I do?
I'm totally in love with you...
I mean, I even have a count up to prove that my love for you is till & always will be true....
I don't think I would be able to live without you...
Its sad, i'm doing everything that I can, just to get you attention...
Now that you're with her.... my whole life has been a blur..
Its like I don't exsist....when did my life lose its bliss?
I hope one day you'll see & quickly come back to me...
If you promise you will.... then I can wait forever for you..
But only if you promise that your love is true..
I'll wait all the time you need, until you are ready to come back to me
People say if you love something let it go, if it comes back then its yours you know....
I love you & I'm letting you breathe....but I'm not quite sure if you'll come back to me....
I've always been strong, independant, and free...but you have some strange affect on me....
What has happened to me, I'm not quite sure.... but hopefully I'll be able to endure...
I can't stand to see her, it makes me ill.... I can't even look at your picture anymore...
Right now I have a sickness that only you can cure...
Knowing that You aren't mine is killing me & I think that I'm running out of time...
If you read this let me know....tell me wether or not you care....
cause if you don't then I will leave & never again shall you hear from me
but if you do....I need proof that your love is true....
I cry constantly and yet I pray, that she is worth your time of day...
I want you to be happy, so give me some sign.... to let me know that your life is back in line...
If you are happy with her, then great...cause thats all that matters now...
I'm lost & I'm confused, I'm bewildered & bemused....
I can't focus, & I feel like a little girl...
who lost her teddy & has now lost her whole world...
Its not right & its not fair....but then again, who really cares?
The point of this that I'm slowly dieing...from all the pain & all the crying
My life has no reason, or no plan.... yet all of this I can't stand...
All I do is sleep & pray I don't dream, I need to find a way to loose all of this contained steam...
I feel like I'm basinf my heart off lies....just so that I won't die...
However now I need to know truth, please tell me honestly
Do you love me, if so please let me know..
because I want to care I want to love, I want to know you....
and above all: I want you to know me....
so if we can, can we start all over again...
Be friends at the beginning, learn everything anew...
To become best friends is my new plan.... to learn things about each other that we never knew...
I hope you understand, everything that I do.....its out of all the love I have for you...
mrgreen I almost managed to figure out how to fix part of the profile I was making. But I messed up another part of it. Oh wells. *sighs*
You know, everyone keeps asking me what I want for Christmas. Truth is, there's only one thing I really want, and they can't give it to me. Truth. I want everything laid out plainly so I get it, so I know where the boundaries are and what happens if and when I over-step them. That's it. The pure and simple truth. And of course, I'd like to actually be truthful for once. Because it's tricky. I can't just say what I think and all if I don't know where the little lines are. I'd probably end up just stepping on several of them!
On the other hand, i actually have put what I thought in this thing. But those happen to be the entries with 0 views. And I was quite frank on some occasions. So, in theory, I really could put exactly what I thought here. But then I might be saying things that maaaaaaaybe shouldn't be said. Or maybe they should.
Oh, and the mall today...DEAR ME. Almost 1 year EXACTLY after my fun little run-in at Clearview, I had another one. Only this time, thankfully I wasn't with my mom, so I wasn't recognizable. Anyway, it was like full-blown stalker day at the mall. I swear. There were these 2 guys, I must've seen them a dozen times! They were 23~ish. Freaky. And there were other people I must've seen 4-5 times! And all this without even looking for it! Usually, I run into people a zillion times because I'm acutally looking for them (i.e, Amanda at school).
All SORTS of DHS people there today, and ironically, the only one who actually saw me was a St. C's graduate. It was a swarm! And to top it all off, I was on the brink of passing out after about an hour. It was too hot in the mall. Some fool guys wouldn't move in one store, so when I went around them, I scraped my hand on a basket...ouch.
Then it was off to Clearview! Yes, we do get around. A little dance machine, a little milkshake, I was wiped when I got home. Of course, after Cisko's Post, Canon-D, Vivaldi, and Beethoven Virus, who wouldn't be dead tired? S,S,A,A. like a choir song, lol. Speaking of which, I still gotta figure out what I'm doing for solo and ensemble. the stuff I can sing, it's not good for this. And despite the fact that they prefer more classical pieces, I don't want to do anything that's so...cliched. People are doing Ave Maria and a few other over-used songs. I'd think the judges must get sick of hearing them. I wouldn't sing anything like that unless I could do it so well tht it stood out against everyone else's. And it probably won't ever get that good. So I need something different. Not totally out there, but not the same as everyone else.
I just did my little dance to my song, so here's a line from it:
"Take a day off, give it a rest, so I can forget about this mess"
~nepie
 nepie · Fri Dec 22, 2006 @ 03:33am · 0 Comments |
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