A lot of my plans have been changed due to my father's wishes. Yes, he does count over my mother.. so like my father doesn't want me to stay overnight at cons anymore.. so I'll only be heading up Saturday's only. Sorry people.. I know it ruins a lot of things, but I've come to agree... maybe if I get my grades up. ((scroll down for the rest of that story)) But like I do spend a lot of money at cons, and it is my own money and such but I really just go to cons for friends.. almost defies the purpose of anime exception of cosplaying and then creating new con crushes isn't a good thing either. I think I'll lay low this year. Sigh* It makes me so emo. I won't be able to spend a lot of time with my friends but I think I can get a lot more done in one day than in a three days span. I just get bored at the cons sometime. And I do miss a lot. Kinda makes me sad. I don't want to miss any of the raves though. I'll cry my eyes out if I don't get to do that.
My grades are starting to suffer because of my lack of sleep. I always fall asleep in one class now. I need to sleep earlier.. so people who wish to speak to me or call me, call me at stroke of 9:00 p.m. I also do a lot of iming lately.. I need to stop that too.
Myspacing is getting a bit EWIE EW GROSS... ya thing. Ever since that stupid jerk who posted that picture in my mailbox, I think I'll cut back on myspace, facebooking, and gaiaing. I don't use my livejournal as often so I think thats okay.
Cosplaying is taking a lot of my time. Like the costume I'm wearing for Daigacon, its taken over 200 hours now. And its still no where finished. I'm just finally putting the top together, and I still have to make the extra parts. Anyways, I'll only be wearing one outfit to Daiga now, and then two for Anime Punch. Which by the way, Thank you Tony in advance.. THANK YOU. THANK YOU
I won't tell what costumes I'll be debuting there but I wish I was able to get the ones I wanted to do such as Talho and ... I forget.
Taekwondo training and teaching has caused me to become sooo damn sore. I don't know if I can improve any better, and then my endurance is improving though. I just want to become stronger. I want to try to match my brother... but the physical barrier between us is impossible to overcome. Plus he's a better fighter.. all the more to make me want to get better.
Family life has gotten really hard. But thats family, when is it a happy one? Even with money, its still hard.. we're all so distant from each other.
I wish I wasn't distant from so many people. I might just stop going to cons after OMG!con in may and save my money for my own apartment.
I want someone to give me a back massage... give me a hug... hold me... and tell me that I'm special. BUT I DON'T FEEL THAT WAY RIGHT NOW. I'm just so emo because of the whole con thing. Its been two days since he said that... and I'm still upset... OMG I JUST THOUGHT OF SOMETHING BRILLIANT.
 Celeste_Orchid · Thu Feb 22, 2007 @ 07:17pm · 0 Comments |
