Blegh, mom's pulling a s**t fit again. God I'm getting tired of these. =_='
Lately I've started working at a chocolate workshop on the outskirts of town, and although I'm working on contract (0.025$ per wrapped/boxed/bagged tablet, every step being a pay increment) rather than an hourly wage, I've been liking the job a lot. I'd been sending resume's all over town to all the greenhouses and shops and everything except the morgue so far, and /no one/ was hiring me, even though a lot of places had "URGENT HELP NEEDED" signs up.
This place? Naaaah. The boss greets me on the day I show up, he offers me a test day while I'm there, and hired me on the spot after seeing what I could do rather than just try judging me off whatever criteria all the other places seem to be on.
But yeah, so, this morning one of the greenhouses finally calls back.
The conversation was pretty short, I told him I had already found a job since, but I asked for the hourly wage and work conditions to compare.
Concluded that I'm better off keeping my job.
I had the choice of working a job in a cool environment (18C), sitting, with a flexible schedule, an understanding boss, carpool and a tuesday-saturday schedule or a job that pays about 50 cents more per hour, but be stuck on a mandatory mon-fri schedule in a hot (25-30C) environment with no ride and no flexible schedule, standing up all day (and walking around all the time).
Considering I still have specialist appointments to get to every now and then, I won't have a choice but to take some days off, and every other job I've had except my current job always bitched about it. :/
Oh well. Not my problem. If she likes that greenhouse job so much, she can go and take it herself. They're closing in two months; then what am I supposed to do, be jobless for another 5 months? Bleh.
On another family-oriented note, I'm really starting to get tired of their constant bullshit. I already pay their Internet, TV and phone bills, and I've been lending them money left and right for gas, and soon I need to start giving mom money for a stupid loan she took. =_=
Not to mention I'm already cleaning the house for them every few days, taking care of the animals, and my siblings as well.
And what do I cost them? Ur, lessee. I spend 99.9% of my home time in the same room (which I even pay monthly for), I just toss my clothes in the same wash as them and I eat their tablescraps. My meals for a week cost less than a week's worth of my sister's stupid yogourt tubes, which she only eats because she can't stand fruit chunks in regular yogourt pots. Of course, she's eight, and because of that, mom goes out and buys an ENTIRELY different set of groceries for meals JUST for her because she doesn't want to deal with teaching her to be less finicky about meals. =_=
Of course, my folks don't thank me /AT ALL/ for showing them how to use Bittorrent to watch movies for free (nearly free, it's just part of the internet download bill, which is still cheaper). Noooo. I've found a way for them to get around their monthly 75+$ movie rentals and all they do is whine and b***h more about me being a moneysink when I pay for almost everything I use. :/
Oh yeah, my ONE lamp and the computer are such an electric bill, it's CWAZEH. It certainly can't be because they use the dishwasher all the time and I hand-wash everything. No, not a chance. It couldn't be. Or all the lights my sister keeps leaving on in the house all day long for no reason.
Gawd, mom even makes me pay for a stupid cellphone that doesn't even pick up signal out here. How plain dumb is that?
I'm seriously starting to think about moving out again. But this time I know I can't do it alone. I just don't have enough in me to survive gong through working 6 days a week and paying everything on my own.
I mght call the social worker at one of the clinics I frequent. I might be able to get her to help me or support groups that can help point me n the right direction.
I /know/ there's a few apartment buildings in Montreal made sepcifically for MtFs in difficulty, if I could just find a way to get into one I could probably get things going for myself again.
Eh, but for now it's mostly theoretics. I need to dig up more info first.
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