Yes, in just a matter of days, I have changed. *smiles* Quite a bit too. I know that this is for the better.
It's amazing the affect one person can have on the other. For me, it was the meeting of someone. I feel so close to this person, even though I've only known them for two weeks.... if even. Then again... spending nine hours in one day with one person... you're gonna find out a lot about them. Once you finish their sentences, you know that you have something. Sadly, this means leaving others behind. *sighs* I feel terrible to have to do this, but I must. *gets tears in her eyes* I thought I could go for a year, but I can't. I need someone here that can understand me. And... I've found him. I wanted things to work out so badly, but I just couldn't.
*sings*
"Someday, maybe somebody will love me like I need
and someday I won't have to prove 'cause somebody will see
all my worth, but until then I'll do just fine on my own.....
See I left another good man tonight
I wonder if he'll miss me
Lord knows, I tried
I think I might like the quiet nights of this empty life
I don't want to sleep
I don't want to dream about the things that I used to need
I ain't gonna cry or go on living lies
I'm just gonna drive...."
I'm so sorry for all the pain I've caused, but it had to end eventually. There was a part of me that knew that I couldn't have you... which made me want you more. Willis, I really did love you. But I can't handle the pain I bring onto myself.
I'm going to bed.
~cora
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