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And now time to be all emo depressedful because I do that in journals as nto to piss off me friends more...
And now I'm way too sick of the city. Last summer my parents got devoriced, and when they told us they said eveything would stay the same for around a year, and reassured us that we wouldn't be moving. Which is all I really cared about because I had lived in that house, in the country, for my whole life, and I wasn't yet ready to have to move into the "big city" even though I attend school in the city.
While visting my grandmother about two weeks later my mother called and said we were moving. I took it really bad, and i was pissed off because she told me where I was alone, no friends, no way to reach them I didn't even have my dog, I was cut off.
So we've been living in the city for almost a year now... I have realized that I rather dislike my mother and my sister because I take after my father who lives five hours, by car, away. I have also realized thatwhenever I was upset at home at my old house, I would walk down to the creek and sit there... I enjoy nature, and that's why I really don;t like living in the city. There's not place for me to go when I'm upset. I can't stand to be in my room because I spend all my time there, my sister and mother occupy the rest of the house, the basement isn't developed and contains boxes from our old house, and the yard is crap.I can't walk anywhere because it's all side walks, roads, and buildings. I just can't walk around man made stuff when I'm really upset, which makes me worse... And I miss my old town terribly.... I just can't stand to live in the city anymore, it's driving my crazy. Like I know that I have to, but I miss it so much.
Iunno, i write in journals on the internet because I want someone to know how I feel but I feel bad when they feel like they have to listen... And I can't talk to my mother or sister about it because they do something that makes it worse, and if I talk to my dad, it'll make him feel bad because he stull feels like it's his fault that I had to move. because he knows how much I loved living there, and I seirously feel like he's the only person that gets me... Iunno.
 Razi Mysteria · Mon Jun 25, 2007 @ 08:57pm · 0 Comments |
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