I can't sleep. If I eat, it hurts my throat. If I don't eat, my stomach eats away at my soul. I can't listen to these songs, if I listen to them, I cry. If I don't listen to them, I'm hollow. I can't talk to them, if I talk to them, my heart aches. If I don't talk to them, I will loose my voice forever. Let me sleep. Let me sleep. Please, you stupid stupid God that makes me suffer this pain thats like carcinogen to me and eats away at my soul, my heart. Stop it, stop it, stop it. I get the good grades. I do my work, I try and I try and I ******** TRY. So PLEASE for once, just make something stay. Make something work. I'm cold, and I'm tired and I want to die me. You stupid, selfish thing up in the sky, kill me. Kill me now and let me go. And everybody: Go to my funeral. Pretend like you did nothing. Act like you loved me and pretend like you ******** cared. I don't want the ******** sympathy. I want his voice, I want his arms, I want a life. I want something. Just a little something but I don't deserve that.
I want to grow up and have a husband and some kids and raise them to rebel and be intelligent and stand up for themselves, but I don't even know if I'll ever find somebody. Ever.
Get away. Don't confront me in school. Don't tell me its okay. Don't tell me I'm overdramatic. Don't tell me to ******** suck it up. You suck it up, ********.
Give me something.
Please hold me now, I'm freezing.
God tell me how we ever got this cold.
Oh, my, my, you're oh so sly.
Let's leave unsaid what's left unspoken
And oh, my boy, you're oh so coy
Let's just pretend that nothing's broken.
Should be on your shoulders...
