I can't help but wonder,
who am I on the inside?
Even I don't know who I will be.
People keep on telling me to choose my future,
but what if I don't have one?
My friends tell me to heard towards the light,
climb up from the darkness...
I can't...
I've almost decided to give up trying,
just give up...
No one can save me,
though many have tried.
I may need saving,
but my will to live died long ago...
I'm too afraid to die,
and yet,
I can't see a future ahead of me.
My brother died because of a drug overdose...
Maybe I will too.
My dad says that I can't see past 19 because someone
precious to me didn't make it past 19.
But....
it's not that.
There's only darkness,
only blackness.
I put on a smile,
a fake a grin,
I act like the freak.
You don't know how much that hurts me.
You call yourselves emo,
when the person who's really hurting,
is right in front of you.
And you don't lift a finger to help...
I died long ago in spirit,
I'm just waiting for my body to catch up...
 tinkr-tailr-sldr-spy · Sun Feb 10, 2008 @ 06:42am · 0 Comments |
