I lie here all alone and in pain again. It's my fault for tearing myself open just to feel and now there's no way I can sew myself shut. Each and every time I try to let someone help I end up here all over again...so it's possible that I can be helped. My biggest reget is that the pain isn't enough to kill me. They say til the end but no one stays for long wheather or not they can help it nothing lasts.