March 28, 2010216 days until Halloween
I dropped out of college on Friday.
I did it because I needed to really. I'm at a point in my life where I need to work hard and achieve independence to live on my own, and unfortunately it's not possible with school work. At the same time, I just can't handle the mental strain school is putting on me. It's sad to say, but true. I need to go to my doctor. Blah blah blah.
I'm looking for a full time job now. Going to save up and finally move out so I can establish independence and a life. Every moment I stay dependent, I just get stuck in the mind frame. I'm so glad my father is being supportive.
I need a haircut. It's too long. Maybe something buzzed on the sides and rad in the front.
Also I miss Dungeons and Dragons.
March 08, 2010236 days until Halloween
Wooh! Excitement!
I finally got my faux vinyl-finished Creature Feature album in the mail. You should've seen my face. It was like Christmas up in this biznitch. Oh, that beautiful
yellow paper folder with its hand-written address. Could it have been written by Curtis or Erik themselves? It was hard to open it, only because I almost didn't want to. Such natural beauty it had in it's package~ Alas, the job had to be done. The adhesive slicked open like peeling a chuck of meat from a slimey chewed corpse. It was such a mood setter. Inside layed the beautifully designed
sleeve and inside that layed the beautifully designed
album.
What a great way to begin a day.
Check out
Creature Feature. I know I love them, maybe any fellow monster rock enthusiast will too.
March 06, 2010238 days until Halloween
So, it's technically Spring Break as of an hour and thirty-nine minutes ago, I guess. I mean, you could say it began Thursday after my class, but yeah. I didn't really attend class at all this week. Kind of sucks. I'm not a great student. Won't pretend to be.
I started watching The Guild. It's really funny. Check them out
here. If you're a total nerd like me and don't already know and love them, give them a shot.
I haven't been sleeping very well lately. I mean, I haven't been sleeping at all, in the night. I just don't seem to be tired anymore. It kind of sucks.
And, I really kinda want to move out. Yeah. I love my dad and all as well as my sister, but I just feel like I'm getting too old for it. Every time I bring up the idea with my dad he assures me that he stayed with his parents until twenty-one and miraculously lulls my intentions. As soon as I get a job, I'm sure I'll have more gall and assertion. Maybe September will be the month I become finally independent. I really can't wait. No more silly hesitation towards starting my own life and living to my dream.
Oy. I'm nervous.
March 03, 2010241 days until Halloween
3 days until Spring Break
Hello friends and onlookers. It's been awhile since I last updated. No one really reads these anyway, but they're a good way to organize my thoughts. So it's been... a month and three days since I last updated. Oh s**t. I've got a lot of stuff to tell too, and by that I mean hardly anything.
I feel like my community college education is really leading me nowhere. I'm so close to dropping out, as stupid as the idea really is. I feel no motivation, no future, and no direction from what it will bring me. Oh sure, I'll look more credible to some a*****e. It's not like I'm actually going into any fields that require much of an education. I came to this epifany just a few nights ago watching Youtube of all things. Just seeing a few vidoes by
these guys made me realize how little I was actually getting from my education. I learned more about my future in a combined 30 minutes then an entire year of study. I can easily do all of this with the right vision, and I'm pretty sure I can do it damn good too. Then again, that a*****e's gonna be putting bread on the table, and though stale, I fear I'll just have to choke it down all the same.
Also, I want to draw more. A LOT more. I feel like I can get better if I just try and stop pussing away. I should've taken Sketching. Maybe I'll start posting stupid lil' doodles I make. If I get good enough, I could even work for Gaia. That'd be a dream come true. I'd love more than anything to design EIs and items. I also have so many OCs to actually draw. One of which I thought of tonight thanks to Gaia and specifically Reapersun for being a BAMF.
Also, I want tattoos. And piercings... I still need a job though. God, I suck.
Oh wow, this is pretty long. I lied!
January 30274 days until Halloween
My moods been improving greatly, and I have a higher appetite than ever before, which was frightening in itself. I've noticed though, that instead of gaining weight from eating more, I'm losing weight. Is this what a higher metabolism is like? It's kind of cool, kind of weird. I babysat today, and felt pretty calm. Usually these children are my bane.
I got a new laptop. It's Hell figuring out, but at least it's cool. It works great too, and it has a lot of potential for functionality. My dad also bought himself an Xbox 360, which he'll never play and expects me to. No worries there, I will. I'll play it fiercely. He does that with a lot of things though. lol
January 26278 days until Halloween
I think I'm really starting to come into understanding what I want out of life more and more, but at short intervals. I wish it would come easy. If only it were like being 10 and just knowing exactly what you were going to do when you grow up. I suppose life just isn't like that. Damn.
I've been thinking of studying animatronics, prop design, costume design, and cosmetics though. Perhaps I should open up a Halloween Store in my future. It sounds like a silly thing to aspire for, but I really feel there's something for me in it. I could also sell books, art, and alt fashion in the "off season" though. I'm not sure.
Life's hard and there are many changes and transitions down the road for me, same as everyone else.
November 23 Too many days until Halloween...
So, it's been at least twelve years (27 days) since I last plogged. I cant say much has happened, despite a s**t ton has happened. Everything kind of reverted back except worse. Broke, single (my fault really), and sick of it all. I'm skipping classes like mad. I need to start a bank account, get a job, and move out. I'm so sick of living here. I might just move during my month-long Winter break. It sucks and life sucks, but I hate complaining.
I'm in a total Eighties mood. I need some good campy films and a s**t ton of white leather right about now.
October 27, 2009 FOUR DAYS UNTIL HALLOWEEN
I might enter a pumpkin carving contest on Friday.
I'm also really into World of Darkness. I really want to write a campaign.
WOOT Halloween parttyyyyy!
October 22, 2009 NINE DAYS UNTIL HALLOWEEN
Man, it's been so long since I've updated.
I suppose both a lot and a little have been happening. I've been scrambling around to find inspiration for the perfect costume, and well, I think I've found a little something. Unfortunately, I don't have the money to make it. YAY! At least I'm going to a Halloween party though. That in itself was a small aspiration. I'm still undecided whether to work on the Haunted Ship or not. I think it's a little late though. Instead, I might just go to a live Evil Dead play. Hopefully I can get tickets in the limited "splatter zone"
I've been reading more about a game called World of Darkness. I enjoy the books immensely. I'm soooo going to story tell for it.
I'm in love. <3
October 06, 2009 25 DAYS UNTIL HALLOWEEN
I feel sexy today.
Everyone should be able to feel sexy and beautiful sometimes.
That is all.
October~! 01, 2009 30 DAYS UNTIL HALLOWEEN
The first day of October, and boy is it beautiful. The sun is rising and the air brings a tantalizing chill. The leaves are turning fairly quickly here and it's a site to behold. Just outside my house a large vine erupted into a beautiful display of crimsons and maraschino red. The cones are blooming at the very tops of the pine trees, and I can only imagine how soon the rain of leaves is to come.
Last night was wonderful as well. I dreamt of Halloween and horror scenarios. It's been so long since having such wonderful dreams~ (One was about aliens. They always kinda freak me out.)
I STILL HAVE NO PLANS FOR HALLOWEEN, but I may have the opportunity to work on a haunted trail. I should sooo take it.
I started playing a new tabletop dice game on Tuesday. It's like Dungeons and Dragons, but it's completely horror-based (go figure). I have all the books already...
Finally! I'm going to start asking for Halloween costume signs. I know you alllll want to give me one. And, a special big thanks to Procleain-kiss for the cute avatar art!
[x] September 23, 2009 Whether you hate someone, think they're disgusting, or can't stand them or not, it's ******** wrong to attack someone and personally humiliate someone. Whether it's in real life or over the internet it's wrong.
And, it makes you a ******** nasty person.
September 21, 2009 40 days until Halloween
I keep running into misfortune lately. First I was dumb enough to forget to call and stayed out past 2:00 and got grounded, then I broke my laptop again. And, also, I'm behind in one of my classes, which really sucks, even though I can make it up.
I still don't know what I want to be for Halloween.
I wish I had the tools to make things though, and a job to buy materials. I really feel like designing clothes. I also really want a tattoo too.
A shame the world is so expensive.
I'm also going to start asking for Halloween Costumes signs, 'cuz I know y'all've started shopping for your costumes.
September 13, 2009 49 days until Halloween
Nothing much to report. I was going to start playing Dungeons and Dragons. You must think I'm a total p***y magnet. The campaign is next Friday (I think/hope). I'm sure it'll be fun.
I've been in a very big Team Rocket mood lately. Wooh villainy!
What else, what else... Oh! Of course. I'd like to give a shout out to my dear lil' sister Laughter Epidemic for being really ******** awesome. She's so cool, she exhales sighs of heavy metal.
ilu Ambuttz
Sept 05, 200956 days until Halloween
I've gotta stop updating this thing so infrequently.
If I had money, I'd probably be an android for Halloween. It'd take a lot of money though. Funny thing is, I just received nine-hundred dollars this morning in loan money. I'm putting it in the bank though, and likely repaying at least 75% back into the loan. If there's anything that'll ******** you up, it's spending like crazy on borrowed money.
Also, my dear friend Bats made me this sexy sign a few days ago
[x] as well as got this for the both of us over awhile back
[x]. I wish I knew the artist.
Aug 31, 200961 days until Halloween
So college is moving well, I think. I need to start working on my s**t right away though regardless if it's graded or not.
I still haven't decided on what to do for Halloween. I mean, I don't particularly think I'm close enough with any of my friends here to Trick-or-Treat with them, as cruel as that sounds. I don't know about any parties or anything either. I'm not very big into "parties" more than gatherings. Maybe I could volunteer for a haunted trail? Costume contest? Monster movie marathon? Whatever it is, I want it to involve costumes. Maybe I could go down to Forest Lake with Mitch and Victoria assuming they'll take me. Who know.
Hey guys! I'm still undecided on a costume. Feel free to comment me with ideas! I'd really appreciate it.
Also, I'm starting to draw again. No, I probably won't draw you. But maybe I will, just ask me. I'll probably keep it to myself though.
Aug 27, 200965 days until Halloween
College is moving quite swimmingly.
It's actually REALLY easy too. I would never have thought. I need to do my online courses though; I tend to neglect them. I learned the bus system and got all my books today. I'M MOVING FORWARD. I feel like I'm slowly growing independent. Creepy.
Also, friends and acquaintances are making plans for Halloween already. ALSO, I'm seeing products in the store already, which amazes me considering how watered down it was last year. Maybe this will be a revival for the holiday?
I can only hope.
Aug 25, 200967 days until Halloween
AND IT'S BEEN THREE SINCE I UPDATED!!
I've been real busy lately. I just started college and so far it seems pretty easy/fun. The busing issue scares the piss out of me, but I'm learning its wonders slowly.
My laptop is also ********. I miss it. I need a new chargerrrrrrrr.
Also, I still don't know what I'm going to do for Halloween.
Aug 22, 200970 days until Halloween
COLLEGE IS TOO CLOSE, I'M NOT PREPARED. I'M GOING TO DIEEEEEEE.
*cough*
This is for both today and the 21st. I joined a guild and became a mod! Wooh me! I also got three signs
[x][x][x] from my good friend PHEONlX. I also got stripper art with SeanSim
[x] made by Sex Cellz. They're so sweet. DONATE TO THEM.
I also bought a mannequin head. That's pretty sweet.
Aug 20, 200972 days until Halloween.
AND FOUR BEFORE COLLEGE!?
Oh s**t! How am I going to make it!? I'm so not prepared, but I need to take a deep breathe and dive on in. It won't be too bad, I don't think.
God before family or family before God? My mom values The first, whilst I value the second (despite being probably being Atheist, I felt the same when I wasn't.) If you feel like it, give me a comment or two about YOUR feelings on the matter. I'm quite curious.
Aug 18, 200974 days until Halloween.
IT'S SO FAR AWAY, but just around the corner. Which for me is also not a good thing, because I still have yet to prepare!!
I started this Plog today. I thought it would be fun. Friends will easily be able to see it from their feeds, and passerbys to my profile will be able to enjoy a good read. It's great, especially seeing as my journal is used for other things.
Oh, I'm also going to redo my art/signs/donation section of my profile and update my journal soon. There are so many artist with no credit!
If you like what you've read, make sure to comment me about it! 
