Well, here I am. 3:50 A.M. In my journal. I need to write it all out </3
Pin, I hope your reading this.
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Pin Kin Too Nguyen, I, Karina Zarir Chapati Kotval, would like to speak. I've known you for what.. 4 years now? I think that's right. And well, I really don't know how to put this. Our longest "fight" was literally atleast... 8 minutes long. But now, what is this actually? A fight? Or are we just not speaking because we can? Or are we afraid of eachother? I really don't know. Things have changed so much during this Summer. We used to call eachother practically everyday, just to say "Hi", or that we were bored and wanted to talk to someone. But slowly, everything stopped. Your cousins came and stayed with you. It was perfectly fine with me at first, but then, it seemed like they were taking over your life. Meaning, you basically did everything with your cousins. Not saying that I was jelous or anything, just saying that being your best friend and all, I atleast thought that we should have spent more time over the summer, me and you, and our other school friends. Hanging out with your cousins isn't a sin or anything, but it just feels like you forgot all about me. Like it was all about you and your cousins now, so I guess I felt betrayed. I mean, you as my best friend, said that we would do so many things over the summer, and what were those things? Sure you came over to my house, like, once. But yea. Pin, I've been there for you through a hell of a lot, maybe not always, but it was a mighty good amount. I've seen you cry, laugh, tease, be mean, get frustrated, anything. I've been through it all with you. I'm not letting a friendship like that just go to waste. But if you want it that way, then you should just stop reading this, right now.
On the other hand, you have always been there for me too. Whenever I had a problem, guess who I called? you. Because I knew that in some bizzare way, you would make me feel better. And I really miss that. I miss talking to you on the phone at 3 in the morning, I miss calling you for the most random reasons, I miss you coming over and just laughing our asses off the entire time. I really don't know what happened. I just feel that you've changed. I didn't want it to be true, but I can't help the truth. You might not feel that you've changed, but for someone who saw you basically everyday for about 4 years, they would know. And hopefully you'll trust me on that fact. Becuase what is friendship without trust? I'm really trying my hardest to not make this corny or all bullshitty, so just bear with me. I don't know how much we'll be seeing eachother at Tucker, and if that would affect our bond that we had before, but hell, we barely saw eachother at HCMS, and we were still tight. I guess it's just upto us to see if we still should continue speaking, or not. You might have already forgotten about me, but I havent. I mean sure, I wasn't the one to teach you how to use a tampon, I wasn't the one who told SFS that you were in love with him, I wasn't the one you called and told me what happened with you and him, but see Pin, I was there before, and I'll still be there for you, always. You remember when you said that we're definetly going to college, and that you'd try to go to a dumb people school just so that we could dorm together? I want that to happen. I don't want to lose such a valuable friend like you~
Well, I'm basically done with my preaching. Now it's all upto you I guess. I got out whatever I wanted to say, and it's your choice whether to just tell me to '******** off' or whatever ~
.: Rina
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