It's like... reality was suddenly born.
I feel more in tune with this so called "reality" then I really ever had before.
I'm naturally half asleep most of the time. Most of the time I can't even remember if something really happened or not.
Caused some pretty terrible things, and some things that I really regret.
Of course, this half-awakeness stuff works pretty well in school. One reason I'm able to get good grades- I treat everything like a video game, like it's not real.
This is one reason I screw up with people a lot-
1. A short term memory problem caused by not fully realizing everything I do.
2. No freaking save button. x.x
I guess this could be classified as an illness. It's not what it sounds like- not being able to distinguish a video game from reality- it seems to be more like acting as though reality is a video game, but not quite.
Maybe simply that reality isn't real. Comparing it to a video game would be too precise.
But now, it seems like everything just became incredibly clear. Like, the fog is gone. But also at one of the worst possible times.
I want the fog back now.
 Excel Ichigo · Tue Aug 30, 2005 @ 01:34am · 2 Comments |
