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Okay, well..... Last night was.... interesting. First off, I looked freakin' amazing and if any boy has the indecency to ever tell me otherwise, they'd better run for cover. I had this pretty black dress on and these black high heels I can't walk in (they were off the instant I got inside) and my hair was sort of curled at the bottom and my nails were (are) this really dark black and I just looked amazing (black goes great with my blond hair). Anywho, so I come and I find Dominique and Ashley and Karri and David and all them and we're talking and waiting outside and everything's fine.

Get inside and start looking for Jason (aka the boy who asked me to the dance and sort of the reason I showed up) No sign of him, but no biggy, it's still early so I dance (scandulously of course cause dancing's when the true me comes out and Obsidian certainly doesn't like to play innocent) and I spot Jason, but I was sorta hopping he'd see me first so I ignored him for a bit, but he was apparently blind so I eventually went up and said hi. He said I looked nice and whistled and the whole annoying bite (mildly flattering at the time and that's called foreshadowing by the way) and then he asked me where me friends were. I pointed and started to walk towards them thinking that he was following me. Turn around when I get back over to Ashley and Lauren and Dominique and all them and guess what? He's gone. Poof! Mildly annoyed, but whatever. Maybe one of his friends distracted him, right? stare

So, I go back to dancing, completely content and happy at this point and as I turn around to readjust my dancing, guess what I see? Jason grinding on some blondie in a short black dress. Now don't get the wrong idea, I don't like Jason that way. But I mean, seriously! He was my date! He was completely ignoring me! And it only encouraged this horrible feeling that I've been having that no boy thinks I'm even worth the trouble and I nearly started crying right there cause my mind was all "Look. Even when you think someone out there might like you enough to bother, turns out they didn't really like you at all." So I sorta hurried off to the top bleachers and sat there for a bit, ready to cry. Dominique and David and a couple others came by and tried to cheer me up, but I was pretty stubborn in my concept that there's something wrong with me and I should just give up.

Dominique was kind enough to say she was going to kick Jason's a** and then she hurried away and I asked the others to stop her. I didn't want to cause any problems for the others. I wanted them to have a good time. Anywho, so David stayed with me and he tried to get me to get up and go dance and I really wasn't up for it, so I asked him to just stay with me and then well.... okay fine! I kissed him! Happy!! About four seconds in to it, I'm like "Oh, s**t! He's here with Karri who happens to be on my Color Guard and is sorta one of my friends!" and I immediately pulled away and David and I sat there for a second blinking at each other before it sunk in what had just happened. I probably said sorry like fifty times and David told me it was okay and I was like "I just kissed you! How is that okay?"

And I tried to scamper away and get to my bag to call home and be all, "Mom, save me!" but David was sorta distraught and I was sorta distraught and I didn't know what to do and I tried dancing, but my heart wasn't in it and Dominique (who was informed about the kiss because I was freakin' and I needed someone to tell me what to do) tried talking to him and I had mom pick up Kayla so she could come and I walked with her to the bathroom and Dominique was right outside the door with David trying to talk to him and he looked at me with this completely saddened "I'm sorry" look and I basically ran in to the bathroom. Then Dominique came in and told me that he was all "I really value my friendship with her and I don't want to ruin it by dating" and of course my evil mind (I must learn how to control this thing) was laughing at me "See? Even when you kiss a boy, you're still not worth the time. How lucky for you!" and I nearly cried again, but I put on a good front for Kayla and went and danced with her. I didn't want her to have a bad time either.

So we're dancing and I'm about ready to scream and I go up to David cause he looks so sad and try to make him smile and he asks me if I'm better and I'm like "You're right." And he smiles "You're not worth it." and he immediately looks like I slapped him, but my inner demon was like YEAH! One of the girls asks me what's wrong with David cause he's majorily depressed and I feel horrible and I try to find him for like ten minutes, before Karri gets a hold of me and tells me that she's mad at David for completely ignoring her and disappearing constantly and that she heard that someone kissed him and my mind's like "oh, s**t." So I say I'll try talking to him and so I finally find him and say "Look, Karri's getting rather annoyed so could you try giving her some attention? Oh, and, she doesn't know it was me, but she knows someone kissed you." David's response: "Great."

So he goes off with Karri and I'm standing there, feeling completely lonely again, but I go back and dance anyway. Must always fake it. The first rule of surviving high school. Slow song starts up and David's there with Karri and I'm sitting miserable on the bench watching them and feeling horrible and David sees me and I think he saw how much it bothered me cause sure enough, the second it's over he scampers off to the bathroom and I'm like "This can not go on" so I wait near the bathroom and when he comes back up, I say "Look. I know I'm the last person you want to talk to right now, but we need to talk. Can we be friends for the night? Forget the kissing thing, at least for Karri?" And of course that made David happier and I continue, "Besides, one of these days you'll see how fabulous I am and you'll just have to have me." And we went back to dancing with our friends for the rest of the night, with me constantly stealing David's hat and smiling at him while he slow danced with Karri and I slow danced with some boy whose name I didn't even know (and have managed to forget already).


At the end of the dance, I ended up with Davids hat and Karri had left about five minutes after they turned on the lights so my inner horrible monster came out to play (I shall officially label her Obsidian) and had David chasing her around the gym, trying to get his hat back. I held it behind me and was like "It's gonna cost you." "What?" "Take a guess." (I'm a horrible person, I know!) "Cheyenne, be reasonable." So I tapped my cheek and got a kiss on the cheek and gave back his hat and went outside to give Kayla a ride home and ended up in tears by the time I got home cause I was talking to Kayla and she said that I'm just so energized, and flirty, and I talk to a lot of people and all the boys see me and they just don't think they could match that energy so they don't try and I'm like, "Great! I'm too over the top! Fabulous!" So tears were ensued soon to be surrendered though cause it was like midnight and I just did not have the energy to cry for very long.

So now I've got practice in two hours and I get to see if Karri and I are going to have an issue (because one of the girls came up to me and was like "Did you kiss David?" and I begged her not to tell Karri and she said "Karri already knows"... so... yeah). Here's hoping no one's killed at practice today.

On an earlier note, before the dance, went to Macy's and got new pants and then went home and made dinner (worst meal I've ever cooked. Made twice baked potatoes that weren't cooked long enough and really hard biscuits. Ugh, never again!!!) and the whole family came over and it was really nice. They have yet to be informed that Jason's on the kill list. But no worries, they will be. twisted Well, anywho! There's my rant about the dance. Hope that was fun! Loves and Laters!