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Random Thoughts #2

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What is the one thing that most of you want? For me, it's actually pretty simple. What I want, is someone to consider me someone important. But not just that, I want someone to consider me one of the most important people in their lives. I want them to worry about me when something is wrong. I want them to be happy to see me when I show up. I want them to think of me when I'm not around and miss me. I dunno, this is just what I've always wanted, but never had. Someone special. Unfortunately, I'm always just a friend, and never the most important one. Maybe someday, that'll change. Maybe someday, people will actually notice me, be happy to just be around me, and miss me when I'm not there. Heh, though I'm trying to see the brighter side of things, this still hasn't changed and I doubt it will anytime soon. To this day, I can still feel the feelings of being alone, useless, and replaceable. And though they have lessened, they're still there. Dormant. Lying in wait. Eventually, the fate I forge will be a much brighter one, but for now, I'll live with the destiny that I've both created and been dealt.