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There are now 2 sides of me. 1 that despises Caitlyn, and 1 that misses her. Demonstrated in the 1st song, will be the only song of hate.

~No1 ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be
so knowing that you are what you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise
but don't expect me to be happy for you
and don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I don't want your pity
I hate your pity

taste your vanity and its sweet bitterness~

~I hope this makes you happy now
that the flame we had is burning out
and I hope you like your pictures facing down
as even broken hearts may have their doubts

and I'm burning all the letters
hoping that I might forget her and her bad taste
that she left when she was leaving me
a life of barely breathing as she walked
out of this place~

~You're all that I hoped I'd find
in every single way
and everything I would give
is everything you couldn't take
'cause nothing feels like home
you're a thousand miles away
and the hardest part of living
is just taking breaths to stay
'cause I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
and I need it
...
this will be the first time in a week
that I'll talk to you and I can't speak
it's been 3 whole days since I've had sleep
'cause I dream of his lips on your cheek
and I got the point that I should leave you alone
but we both know that I'm not that strong
and I miss the lips that made me fly

I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best~

~So why'd you have to go
Is there something I could say to make you turn around
'cause nights like these I wish I'd said don't go
Is there anybody there
Can anybody help to get me out of here
'cause you're walking down a road that I can't go~

~Tell me once again
That you'll love me to death
And should I die, you swear that you will come for me
As I fade away, you reach out your hand
Please don't let me go~

~I'll be okay
Is that what you want me to say
It's called break-up
Because it's broken~

~I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you
To late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to~

~I'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when I asked you, believe me
you never let go
but I let go~

~She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
Than he gave she’s looking for

He calls her up
He’s trippin' on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
He knows she’s movin' it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s losing it
She doesn't care~

~I have never been this lost or betrayed or forgotten
I cannot see where I went wrong
So be yourself and don't hold back because
Everybody's helping you achieve your goal

I woke up late this cold dark afternoon
Somehow felt that I'd be losing you
I never understood where I went wrong
Somehow in my head I know I'm right

It's over now
You're replaceable~

~I miss the way you used to say my name
I miss the way you'd call me just to make sure I'm okay
I miss those days
they slipped away somehow
time goes by so fast
before you know it then is now

and I'm constantly reminded
of another place and time
why can't we just bring it back tonight

stay,
stay for the weekend
make it so your eyes
can stare into mine
will you stay
stay for the weekend
spend a little time
just you and I

I already know
the way it's gonna be

I miss those days
they slipped away somehow
the time goes by so fast
before you know it we're moving out~

~don't get me wrong here
I need you in my life
but we're independent people
at the current time
I know that years from now
a day will finally come for us to love

this is where I draw the line this time
this just has to stop right here
if we can't just learn to live our lives
then we don't have any hope at all~

~Scary movies and nightmares to follow
I'm such a wreck when you're not around

I see you
But I can't touch you
and it's killing me
It's killing me so good
I see you

But I can't touch you
and it's killing me
I'm looking at the stars
I hope you see them too
I miss you
I miss you so good

Everything I do
Reminds me of you
I can't do this without you

I see you
But I can't touch you
and it's killing me~

~Tell me that you love me, and it will be alright
Are you thinking of me
You know I need you
Just like you need me
Can't stop, won't stop~

~Do you love me
Do you feel it in your bones
Do you dream of me when you're sleeping on your own~

~I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
When we were still untouchable

It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
'cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful~

~May I say I love you now~