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Did you ever just stop and think about how human some people really are? You hype them up in your own mind, make them appear to be this great person better than you that you could never meet as your equal, and then they gradually do stuff that reveals just how much more human than you they are.
Like Sarah. She was supposed to be amazing. Flawless. All-knowing. Indestructible. And I haven't even bothered to ask after her since the incident which caused me to write a very angry letter that she'll never see. It's almost like my whole ideal of her came crashing down around me, and there she lay, shattered and human, in bits and pieces in front of me.
And it's happening again. Someone very special to me has recently become so human in my eyes. Again I thought of her as all-powerful, all-knowing, invincible. But she's just... she didn't come crashing. She slowly revealed her humanity. And here I thought that she'd have the answer to every question, the meaning behind every existence. But I look at her, and I look at how much I've grown up in the past few months, and I look at how she talks and acts and I just can't believe it.
Which makes me wonder why humans do that to themselves. They make people out to be greater than they are, greater than human. But why? What's the point of seeing someone as something that they're not? Presumably so that you have a goal and idol, but I'm not so sure. And is this nature inescapable?
I know I do it. I do it often (ignore the sexual inuendo). But why? I don't have much time left, why can't people stay the way I want to think of them? Why did you have to reveal what you really are, now of all times?
In a way, I think that these people we idolize are really more human than the rest of us. Maybe it's because of this that we try to make them something they're not. Maybe humans are afraid of being human. You think?