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I want to try going out with Nick, but I'm back with David. I mean, I'm not completely sure I want to go back out with David yet, but oh well... I don't think I'd ever be even 90% sure. Of course I don't think Nick and I was gonna happen either. I don't know. I don't wanna break up with David AGAIN, especially after less than a day. I don't know what to do. I'm so wish-washy. I don't want people to see that, so I'm trying not to break up and get back together so much. I'm trying not to take advantage of David, and I'm not doing it as much as I could because I'm not like that! That's horrible! I just, I need some space I guess, or something different for a while, or I don't know... I still love David and have feeling for him; I still want him. GAH! I WANNA END THIS! I DON'T WANT TO BE CONFUSED ANY MORE! I DON'T WANT TO BE WITHOUT THE ONE! Who ever he is... I almost feel bad for him. Once I do find him, will I leave him to? Will I need space? Will there be so many sorries? Will he do these things to me? Or will one of us do something worse to the other? Will we fight as much as David and I do? I don't think so. Will my feelings get hurt as much? I don't think so.