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Failing life.

Ahhhh... you ever get that feeling where you feel as though you're letting your life slip away from you?
I wake up each morning with a bright new day, I have plans of what I want to get done and how I'll do them. The only problem is when I get to the end of that day and I'm lay in bed I can't help but feel as though I've failed. I've barely done anything I wanted to, I've pretty much wasted an entire day of my life doing what... sitting playing a game that isn't even real... watching funny shows that once again, are just a manifestation of artificial distractions from the real world. I think to myself sometimes... what ever happened? When did I die? Because it seems as though i've stopped living life.

The last time i felt genuinely alive was last September when I had the most amazing time of my life traveling in America with my amazing girlfriend Carli, though since then everything has sloped back downhill. I feel as though I'm not only failing myself, but I'm failing life... There are people less fortunate than me, much less fortunate. I can walk, see, hear... I have a free library just down the road where I could learn all of mankinds greatest acheivements, and yet I waste my days sat here doing nothing.

I guess I just need to slap myself around a little and wake myself up from time to time, it's just trying to find the encouragment, or will to do so.

Some people say this is the way the world is going now though. That we're being forced into a life surrounded with luxuries, distractions and entertainment so we never truely wake up and see whats happening in the world. Have you noticed throughout the Credit Crunch that one of the main departments we HAVEN'T heard from is the computer game industry? You never hear that the Wii is badly losing profit and has to cut jobs... oh no... you also never hear that Paramount Pictures, or 20th Century Fox, or even Vodaphone, Orange, Nike... all those top entertainment/ distraction brands are booming. We're surrounded by Video Games, Religion, War, Media produced war, Advertisements, TV Shows, Movies, Pass times, The Internet, ANYTHING to keep us from realising that we're actually living RIGHT NOW! That we have the power to change things as a race, as a population.

You can think of it as a test, how does one man rule many without any real authorisation or power? He keeps the many occupied, so they never actually see that he is only one man. He keeps them distracted, worried about false wars and religion, worried about when they will get their next PS3 game. Then he sits back and laughs, watching us busy ourselves with non-important things.

Perhaps we've been brainwashed without knowing it. We come on Gaia thinking we're doing so from out own choice, but in reality we could be forced into this, into being distracted all day. Never seeing the truth of the world how it should be seen.

So perhaps it isn't just me, perhaps over the course of the 20th Century at somepoint mankind just started failing life. Perhaps this is an enginered state of blindness placed on us by those we trust to keep us entertained. More and more each day we become zombies, robots, never actually doing exactly what we want to do... but doing what is the norm... sticking to what other people say, doing as they do. Wasting out hard earned wages on new fashions, themes for our houses, all simply because they say we should... because it's apparently what we should do.

How much longer will you be a slave to the society? A mindless numned robot, living a life chosen for you not by fate, but by people that wish for you never to truely see.

Is there even a way out?