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I've been thinking about Engel, and when he makes me mad. And I always want to be able to tell him I hate him, and just walk away so that I stop getting hurt. But I just... can't.
Because he's my friend, and I love him. And no matter how mean he is, and how much he pushes me away, I just don't want to leave him. I can't. I don't abandon my friends that way. He'll be yelling at me, and I'll be yelling at him, and he'll be so pig-headed that I can't even think straight, and I still can't honestly say I hate him. I can say that I don't like certain things he does. Dislike them at the most. But I just can't walk away. And now when he's sick, he's all that I'm thinking about. I'm constantly wondering if he's okay, if he's getting better or worse, what's wrong, and what I can do to help. I know that he's doing it because he as his reasons, and I might just be constantly setting myself up for more and more hurt, but I'm going to keep going back to him. I'm going to keep showing him that I care, and I'll be staying that way. I won't leave his side, and I won't stop caring about him. I'll stay as devoted to him as I am to all my other friends.

"-Ganon-
Where did all this come from? The pushing you away image?"

Yeah... ^^;

"-Ganon-
stare You think too much. Does Angel tell you that often enough?"

Apparently not. xd