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What do I do? He gave his life to bring back my lover. His blood on my hands. I... I cannot waste this. I cannot let his sacrifice be in vain. I never hated him, you know. I've always loved him; he was my friend, and I love him.
Engel... even if you never get this message... this is my promise to you.
Your blood is not wasted. With it, I will become strong. I will... I will protect your family, and mine. I will study, and practice, and train, and I will be strong. I can't take your place, but I owe it to you. I won't... I won't let this be in vain. I will not... I will try not to cry. When I am faced with danger, I will not back down. I will fight, because I must protect the ones I love. When I am afraid, I will not cower. I will swallow my fear and fight for what I believe in. When I must sacrifice what I want for the good of another, I will make the sacrifice without a moment's hesitation.
You have always been my friend, and I will... I will not let you down. I promise you this, with everything I am. I.. I will swear it, by my blood and yours. I will not let your sacrifice be in vain.

I love you, my friend. I am sorry that I wasn't strong enough.