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I want them. I want them today. I want them NOW.
But I also don't want it to seem like sex is all I want, because it's not.
Because there's a way that it could still happen. If I ask really nicely, Ganon will go to Nettie's house and ask Frey and Loki and Nyx to come over. And if they say yes, then they'll be here, and Frey will pull my spirit out of my body, and I'll be able to be with my lovers.
But I don't want it to seem like I'm a sex-crazed child. I love them... so much. So much that it hurts sometimes; that I don't want to think about being away from them.
I want to be with them physically. I want my body to connect with theirs. I want to give myself to them fully and completely. My heart and mind are already theirs. My body is all that's left. I want to do this with them... I want to make love to them and kiss them and tell them that I'll never leave and look in their eyes and see the recognition, and know that they trust me and know I'm telling the truth. And I'm afraid that I might miss my chance.
I can't be away from my body. I'm not strong enough yet. So I can't very well go over there through the internet, if I manage to get my spirit out. And I don't want to send Ganon over to them like a Messenger.
"Hey, your woman wants sex! She says hop to it, because she's horny."
But it's not like that, honestly! I love them. I want to be with them. I want to be one in mind and body and spirit, corny as that may sound. And I really really want to prove that I'm that dedicated to them. To prove that I trust them like I've never trusted anyone before.
But what does it say for me when the only thing on my mind is sex?