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So, how do I feel about Jonathan now? I loved him so much I'd give up my life for him a few months ago. I think our love started to fade in January. Hmm. I'm going to make a timeline of our relationship.

July 5 2007 - Confess my love to him; start dating
August 07- Go to his 13 birhtday party ; Mission kiss Jonathan failed
December 07- First kiss; he comes to my 13 birthday party
(somewhwere in here we break up because he slapped Christina's a** >> wink
January 08- He switches school to Parkway
-beteen Feb 08 and October 08 he comes to my house a couple times-
-he also breaks up with me but we get back together....
July 5 08- 1 year anniversary
-sometime in October 08- first official date (wtf it took that long??!!)
November 08- His parents see the dirty IM and cut him off from me
December 08- he cant come to my bday party because of the IM
January 09- Library incident
Febuary 09- his mom gets cancer

And finally now: He wont answer his phone for anyone (me, carmen,cath, tony) and I'm starting to realize maybe it wasn tmeant to be.

When you love so much it's hard to just let go and move on. I cry sometimes about it. I wish I could just forget about him. The memories are too painful. He feels like a stranger now.