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In one of my favorite book series, that's what they're called. People who taught themselves magick; they're called Wilders.
I don't know... I still feel uneasy. Engel's lack of response last night... it makes me think I did something wrong. And everyone says I should have told, but Ganon, Neandr, Al'lik, and Andro all know my capabilities. I didn't think it was all that big a deal since it was so easy for me; I thought it was simple stuff anyone could do. Hell, I was positive that Nettie was stronger than me.
And then I find out that she's not, and everyone's starts flipping out because I can do that stuff...? It... it makes me feel like I did something wrong. I'm not strong. I know I'm not. I can only work magick as long as I'm the only human around. I can't meld my consciousness with my spirit. I can't meditate. I can't fight. I can't do so much... why is what little I can do such a big deal...?
I... I really feel like I should be in trouble or something with how everyone freaked...