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I am so sick and tired of these shadow beasts! Why can't Nega God just tell me he wants me dead already!? He could go ahead and send something really strong so I don't stand a chance if he wants that!!!
But NOOOO, he has to sit there and play these little games and try to break me! And I'm TIRED OF IT!!! I'm tired of people messing with my head! I'm tired of people trying to get information out of me! I'm tired of them taking advantage of my weaknesses! And I'm tired of these ******** SHADOW BEASTS!!!!!
It's like, as soon as I identify them as family, then no one else can detect what they are! I'm told that the family is usually killing one or two a day, but as soon as I see one and it looks like family, then it's like their aura is hidden or something. Not reassuring.
What I find interesting, though, is that as soon as I look at the person and I say 'Shadow Beast', then they change into a shadow beast and get a creepy smile and start to attack. It's like, they're okay and civil as long as no one sees through their illusion. But once it's gone, then there's nothing left and they attack. It pisses me off because it's making me paranoid. And I hate being more paranoid than I already am! >:/
I can't... I can't relax. Even in my own home, around my family, I just can't relax. And I'm starting to think that's what Nega wants. And I really have to try and stay calm but it's getting so hard when these little ******** bug the s**t out of me. :/

Oh! And on a side note! Ne-chan? I may not have sounded like it, but I'm pissed at Noname for what he did too, okay?