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It's rare for me to log in to Gaia... And even rarer for me to write down (or in this case type...) the events in my life, So I'd better make this a dang good entry... Whew, I got a lot to write. xd

No one but my family and I know this but I umm we.. don't have a normal life... My family and I (illegally) live in our grandmother's apartment. [LOONG story, don't wanna start...] But now that our grandmother passed away things may finally change...

Lately I've been swallowing myself more and more into the world I've created, that's right: I live in my own world. And on top of that the rest of my family has become even more crazy (but mot as crazy as me). Even worse, I've started to think that I'm not human. My hate for humanity is becoming increasingly worse... confused Hmm there's no end to this...

I've also been realizing my umm... true feelings... And have been somewhat able to draw again. Now when I get my own room I'm gunna study Manga and Japanese like there's no tomorrow. So much problems, so much feeling revolving around my head at once... All this, revolution after revolution after revolution, I wonder why I'm not dizzy... I also wonder why I can't feel anythig in the ol' ticker anymore... But I know there's hope, my determination and willing to fight become stronger as my heart shuts itself farther and farther away from reality...

I think I can finally see the light...

If only I could show this light to others...