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I had just finished watching The Sixth Sense an hour or so ago.
And it got me thinking.
Unrelated things about the movie.
Such as myself.

I've been able to be the friend that will be there for when you need a shoulder to cry on.
I was happy to realize that so many people think of me that way.

Then I began thinking of me.
Was I ever able to open up to somebody like my friends have to me?
No.
Then, I felt so alone.

There have been people to assume who I am, what I think, and why I do.
But yet, all have been wrong.
Am I so different that nobody could at all understand me?
Or am I just a freak in a human body.

Either way, I'm all alone.
I couldn't open up to another, because I know they'll reject me.
Or even worse, assume me as something I'm not and hate me.

I'm all alone in a world where 6 billion people reside.
Is there another who will say that they understand what it's like.
To see things in such an outrageous way.
In such a provocative way.
And actually be like me?
No.

There will never be another like me.
I'm too... ******** up.

Nate was right.
You only need one person in your life.
And that's yourself.

I want to live a happy life.
But how can I,
When I can't even crack a smile and actually feel it mean something.