crying ... i dont want to do this anymore... i have a frend over for the weekend right? my mom makes these plans to go help someone move and then expects us to go with her, after my parents have spent all this time teaching me to never make a guest do any work or leave them to fend for themselves. and, they want my frend and i to do all these chores this weekend when shes here to spend time with me, not to work around the house. and then my dad calls the house.... he asks where my mom is and wen i tell him he goes off on how i never help out and am never responsible. i...im so tired of being treated like im nothing. like im never good enuf for anyone or anything. im tired of crying myself to sleep almost every night... i dont want to be hurt so much anymore, but theres nuthing i can do till im 18. and then theres the fact that hes always making decisions for me. he never lets me speak my mind, and every thing i do is always wrong. we r supposed to go on this trip this summer but i never sed i wanted to go. he just assumed. im never allowed to voice my own opinion because it dosnt matter. the only opinion that matters is his. and it doznt matter wat i do bcuz its rong anyway. like wen they r in the middle of punishing me... if i get pissed, then i am rude and unwilling to take concequences for my actions...if i cry, im being overdramatic and stupid... and if i just sit there and take it??? then im just an arrogant little brat who is never happy and bitches about everything.
Just because I do not fear death, doesn't mean I'll welcome it with open arms.
When I die, I'm sure I'll go to heaven. Because all my life was spent in hell.
I can't tell if I'm tired of being alone, or just simply tired of being.[/color:a1f8418932]
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